Thursday, June 30, 2005

Don't want to put on masks...

masks of?

i dunno also...

{some random thoughts... so read this post only if you have the patience and time. juz close this window if not... bye bye.. have a nice day...}

not again...
why am i so stupid to have done the right thing at the wrong time?
or maybe it is the wrong thing at the wrong time....

or maybe it's just plain stupidity...

self-righteous i need none. i don't want. i don't want to be.

or maybe it's just the sinful, evil nature in me.

that prevents me from NOT glorifying my God.

reminds me of a passage in Romans... where Paul also states that he himself.. also struggles with his sinful nature.

ahh.. here it is...



Romans 7:14-20(NIV)
14We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave
to sin. 15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but
what I hate I do.
16And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law
is good. 17As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in
me. 18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I
have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19For what I do
is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on
doing. 20Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but
it is sin living in me that does it.



i can relate with this... i mean c'mon.. who doesnt...

sigh... seems like a lot of blog posts this few days are far from optimistic... a whining atmosphere... me included... as if some how en masse, many ppl are feeling low... how come?

sigh.. don't know if it's the fatigue that never goes away, or wadeva.. i cant think much... "think" meaning.. reflection...
and it's taking it toll.


Yet again, this author would like to apologise
to any reader

for the pessimistic ambience radiated through
this post.

Any inconvenience is deeply
regretted.

<{Apology each sold seperately, batteries not included} >

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Thank YOU!

Thank You, dear Lord.
Thank You for the past few days, esp
fri-sun.
Thank You that You've answered my
prayers... and more...
Thank You.

Saturday, June 25, 2005

a prayer...

Thank You, Lord.
For ministering to me through last night's Prayer & Praise meeting.
For ministering to me in a way i never thought...
For ministering to me through the prayers of my brothers, Kelvin and Mark, and even Ps Kay Kiong.

Thank You, Lord.

Humble me, that You will always be the Lord of my life.

In every aspect. School. Home. Church. Private life.

Thank You, Lord.
For convicting me.

Lord, tomorrow's Gen Con 2/ Youth Sunday 2005,
will be in Your control.
Help us, Lord.
That we will NOT lose our first Love.
That we will not do so much of these things, until we get so activity-driven that we forget Who and why we do it for.
Convict us individually, that we'll come back to You, Your Truth, with clean hands, and pure hearts.
That our lives will be transformed inside out, in all aspects of our lives. That we'll rid ourselves of all malice, deceit, hypocrisy, envy, and slander of every kind (1 Peter 2:1).

Lord, humble us.
Show us that it's not about us.
Show us how much more supreme You are.
Help us see, how unworthy we are in your Presence.
But... You sent Your Son, Jesus Christ to die, in place of ours.
That now we are justified, if only we believe.

Thank You, Lord.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen...

Monday, June 20, 2005

inconsistently consistent, consistently inconsistent

whatever does the title mean???
it's consistently inconsistently consistently inconsistent....
so inconsistently consistent right? but consistent inconsistent.
erm...
erm...
erm...

is it reflective of our lives???
sometimes, is our life (or lives....??? ;P ) inconsistently consistent, but yet at the same time consistently inconsistent?


[erm, nic.... don't they mean the same thing?? like... duh! like DUH!]


you get the point, don't you?
our lives can be in constant (or rather, consistent) inconsistency,
yet at the same time...
we feel very consistent, being inconsistent...

Galvs said in his recent post....

It's really simple to put up a facade (false front) in church and be a
totally different person out of it, as if God's presence's limited to the
four walls of the church building ("church" has always been defined as the
body of Christ, not the building).

really the topic i'm blogging about...

maybe our lives is like our handphone(s)....
the profile feature....

go to one place, change profile...
go to church, activate {holy, christian} profile.
go to school, activate {cool, whassssuup, @!#$%^&;~****^&* } profile.
go home, activate {victim} profile.
go to library, activate {silent} profile. [......erm....oops... :D ]

1 Peter 2:1 (New International Version)
1Therefore, rid yourselves of all malice and all deceit, hypocrisy, envy,
and slander of every kind.


man... i'm guilty of all these....



struggling....
to be consistently consistent...

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

for the sake of it...

hai....
going one big circle... going back to square one...

dunno what i'm crapping though..

juz blogging for the sake of it...

isn't it like life sometimes?
going thru life juz for the sake of it?
passing the motions..... (NOT passing motion.. haha)
life is so sian....
even when got (fruitful) things to do, we choose to continue to be sian...
cos....(for me lah)... no driving force sometimes...

hmm.. living for the moment...
what will our lives turn out to be, when we do this?
choose the sensational, enjoyable, pleasurable...


hai....
sometimes i'm so disgusted by my own actions..
that it SEEMS i'm going bit by bit upwards,
when in actual fact, it's spiralling downwards....
_______________________________________________
what does it mean to have a purpose-driven life for you people?
i havent't read that book...but, hmm.. just curious to know what
purpose is driving our lives...

tag, or leave a comment.....

Monday, June 13, 2005

i dunno what to say... or rather should i say it.

i'm sure most who went to WEB on saturday, will comment about it some way or another...

Yes.... HIS prescence was great.... and manifestations abound.
but...

so now... will we go to church just to get these "shiok shiok" feeeeeliing?
because.. it's juz so cool... so supernatural.... and maybe can boast to our friends of these experience...

i really hope we do not place more emphasis on these manifestations than on His word.
cos i feel... we gotta be anchored in His word....



gotta go for lesson... bye...


(PS... to those who felt cheated in some way of something i did to you all... i'm really sorry....)

Thursday, June 09, 2005

have i?

what am i feeling now?

confused?

probably so...

confused of what?

i also don't know...

(man... this seems vaguely deja vu....
i tink i had post like this???)

anyways.... i feel i may have stumbled someone...
or even having multi-standards...



i also don't know...

confused of what?

probably so...

confused?

what am i feeling now?

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

God WILL take care of you...

here's a hymn that's meaningful to me...
a hymn which encouraged me.
i hope the lyrics can be a form of encouragement
to you too.
i know many of us find hymns very lao tu...
but, hymns are a more contemplative, reflective type of worship... (usually lah...)
hmmm.. it seems everyone is putting up lyrics on their blogs...
it doesnt matter.... (does it?)
i hope that you, my dear friends,
will know that there's a God who WILL take care of you...
even in times of trial, struggles and warfare.

GOD WILL TAKE CARE
OF YOU
words: Civilla D. Martin
music: Walter S. Martin


Be not dismayed whate’er betide,
God will take care of you;
Beneath His wings of love abide,
God will take care of you.


Refrain
God will take care of you,
Through every day,
over all the way;
He will take care of you,
God will take care of you.


Through days of toil when heart doth fail,
God will take care of you;
When dangers fierce your path assail,
God will take care of you.
{Refrain}


All you may need He will provide,
God will take care of you;
Nothing you ask will be denied,
God will take care of you.
{Refrain}


No matter what may be the test,
God will take care of you;
Lean, weary one, upon His breast,
God will take care of you.
{Refrain}


Thursday, June 02, 2005

no title......

i met a friend, who's Christian, in sch somewhere this wk... we were classmates in MI, and the few of us usually are quite crappy...
during the CCA "fair", it was where we met...
i asked him if he was interested in joining any if the Christian organisations, like Navigators, Campus Crusade for Christ or Poly Christian Fellowship.

what he said was quite disheartening to hear....

"aiya... go also go there act, act, raise hands, act kuai, and go home"

he's quite a frank guy and will usually speak what he really feels...
but isn't it quite a common mindset? don't we feel that way sometimes, if we don't get our purposes right?

so what's the "right" purpose?

i dunno...

but..
let's think...
my friend has put to words what many are feeling....
i think i said more, some posts ago...

i got a writer's block now, or rather, a blogger's block... (hey it rhymes!! -_-'")
cant think of anything more to write...

[by the way, i've linked this site i came across (but without permission(: hope u guys at CARM will be gracious enough...... haha..).
Christian Apologetics and Reasearch Ministry. i think its name says it all... go check it out..]