yep.

learnt lots.
thought lots.
wondered lots.
saw lots.
went through lots.
parking lots??? ;P

the week has lots. not Abraham's nephew though.

i have been contrasting lots of things this week.

true sincerity vs true insincerity
sincere concern vs immature scorn.
faith in the Almighty vs logical is-it-possible-ness.

and you see people's character revealed through different actions, reactions.
some, you're touched. others, turned off.

i wonder how some can manage to be so, erm, *ahem* 'mature', giggling at others and yet at the same time, when being exhorted by someone to stop doing something harmful to themselves, they take it offensively and say that they're quarrelling.

i wonder if i should even blog this.
but my point is that, our lives (me included)... are so filled with inconsistencies, such descrepancies, such contradictions.

oh wells.
this is life.

and i wonder... is it possible to know someone for a lonng time, and yet at the same time not know that person at all.

rhetoric qn.

ans is obvious.

oh wells.
this is life.

as we move on in our stations of life, our various relationships will evolve and change. some get stronger, others... sad to say... just dissipate or dissolve. at the same time, you get new friendships/relationships which may replace those that dissolved. oh wells...

relationships also change as people change. even more so, when both parties are changing at the same time.

oh wells.
this is life.

move on.


i don't know about tomorrow. ... but i know Who holds my hand.
Jesus, You are my best friend, You will always be.






and why are you reading this nonsense???
don't read... must i keep warning you????
;P

of leaning on ppl, mountains, and Master.

my friend's msn nick:

人靠人。 人跑。人靠山。山倒。 人靠主。最好。

men depend on men. men run. men depend on mountain. mountain zao.
men depend on Master. great.


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and indeed i gotta depend on my Master.
with an utterly ridiculously high no. of reports at one go.
with an immense role in a camp.
with deadlines, and ministry commitments needing a balance.
indeed i gotta depend on my Master.



oh wells...
this week has been another of those 'oh wells' weeks.

im sure i can learn things from my sch's poly 50. something happened.
and im sure i learnt lots.

and it was touching to see the love of fellow Bros and Sisters (Siss???) in Christ.
the concern shown was really immense. and i thank Him he put me here.
in CF.

that's what He calls us to be, isn't it???
a community of love.

and that's what we're not doing. in churches. in our own lives.

but, again, we know our own nature.
we know that we cannot do it on our own.

"we can't do it on your own, except by HIm" becomes especially poignant when YOu see what He does.


leaning on other people? leaning on the great mountains and pedestals of our lives?

leaning on Master?


人靠人。 人跑。
人靠山。山倒。
人靠主。最好。

amazing???

it's amazing how when strangers pray for you, their prayers speak to you profoundly. especially when they concern matters that are close to my heart. and it wasn't only one person. somehow i had three people praying for me this morning, when it was just supposed to be one(married) pray for one(single). all three prayed different things, but they were profoundly simple (simply profound???)...
maybe it's His Spirit. no. it IS His Spirit.

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it's also amazing how great our sinful nature is.


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but far more amazing, is how God is God.
how he would even give us Him.

and we all live in an utterly unfair relationship.
not to us.
but we're the ones making it 'unfair'.
think about this:
you'll only get hurt by someone, if you love that person.
more love. more potential hurt.

and the love God has on us is infinite. or maybe infinite is an understatement.
and we hurt Him day in day out.
we betray Him.
we break promises with Him.
we rebel against Him.
we think we are greater.

more love. more hurt.


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it's amazing how quickly we forget too.

you know where i'm driving at ya.

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it's amazing i was born on 1877... :D:D

i got my own town!

how can?

how can a request for me to take up a certain role in a certain ministry actually affirm and confirm the ministry i (think) am called to?

how can angry and frustrating thoughts actually just disappear?

how can a person who seems bent on discrediting the idea of God, christianity and its central figure, Jesus, be a true earnest seeker on what really matters in life?

how can?

how?

no... Who...

God.