Sunday, October 22, 2006

'who am i really' doesn't really matter anymore when we see 'who God is really'.

back to basics. identity in Christ.

does it matter what ppl think of us?


my lesson i learnt. the message He spoke to me last weekend.


and this wk i've done things, things i didn't know how i did it. how could i even have done that?
how could i?

time to change. time to check my attitudes.
else it will continue on to adulthood.






this song again.. especially meaningful.

Before the throne of God above
I have a strong and perfect plea.
A great high Priest whose Name is Love
Who ever lives and pleads for me.
My name is graven on His hands,
My name is written on His heart.
I know that while in heaven He stands
No tongue can bid me thence depart.
No tongue can bid me thence depart.

When Satan tempts me to despair
And tells me of the guilt within,
Upward I look and see Him there
Who made an end to all my sin.
Because the sinless Savior died
My sinful soul is counted free.
For God the just is satisfied
To look on Him and pardon me.
To look on Him and pardon me.

Behold Him there the risen Lamb,
My perfect spotless righteousness,
The great unchangeable I AM,
The King of glory and of grace,
One with Himself I cannot die.
My soul is purchased with His blood,
My life is hid with Christ on high,
With Christ my Savior and my God!
With Christ my Savior and my God!

Sunday, October 01, 2006

finally.


this is pretty lor sor and boring. pls dont read.
im serious.


Yea. finally i shall blog about Camp Lost?.

"Camp Lost?"?
Yea... that's the name. Camp Lost?. with a question mark.

i suppose those closer to me, or some whom i have told would have known that last last wk (ie 18-21sept06), there was a combined poly camp! and of course CFers from the diff polys and those who attended the camp lah! hahha.. at a camp.. then "huh? i at camp arh? i din noe lei... wad am i doing here? am i Lost? " :D:D hahhaa

anyways...
somehow unlike most other camps i been too, where rite after the camp, u see ppl blogging abt it on the day itself or at least the day after...

this camp somehow i realise tt ppl blog bout it a few days after. its going to be 2 wks since camp now...

oh wells... if u wanna see other insights or reflections of the camp, can go to any of these..
http://t-man.blogdrive.com/archive/193.html --tianen's
http://modernity.blogspot.com/2006/09/am-lost-but-now-found.html --ian ong's
http://lgspirit.blogspot.com/2006/09/camp-lost.html --lyd goh's
http://mark-sae-it-not.blogspot.com/ 23sept06 post --mark lai's
http://www.love-symphony.blogspot.com/ 22sept06 post -- kat's

sure got more lah.. but oh-wells-but-then...

and of cos some pics on my multiply... tho it will fully be up nxt wk, when i get Tianen and my pics... (those uploaded were during the camp, and not all appeared...)



oh wells..
beyond the "camp's great! woohoo!camp's a blast!" etc...
i wonder what has He spoken and touched in our lives (those who went).

for myself, i guess He has spoken in a diff way from all the other campers..
i took home something much different i suppose.....


camp lost? seems all a blur really.. hahha.
it came. it gone. so fast.

ah wells. i guess my journey began much earlier. ironically just after 2 camps in june..

came back from, erm, the high class stable, to PCF's(SP's side of CF)first combined ministry camp. and i was "given the honour" of being camp commandant.. hahha.

which was really a privilege and honour.
learnt, and experienced God in a way which i can never unless thru this role.

abt myself too.
and of course with all these lessons, more reflections.. on how i should change, etc.

ah wells. yea. i was camp commandant.
nothing at all to be proud of.
and yea. the prev posts where i mentioned of "an immense role in a camp", yea this the one.

in fact, i'd rather not.
(thanks ah, Yan Sing, Meliza... :P :P )

oh wells.
God did show me somethings abt Himself.

these are pretty much all cliches. but cliches take on another dimension when the cliches become experience.

~ anything we do for Him is really about Him only. stop thinking that you are indispensable. that without u, the whole thing will crumble.

~ and why stress? sometimes we stress ourselves out with our own details, and we ironically blind ourselves and in turn deceive ourselves about who God really is. yea, we do need to settle details, but if all we want is perfection, then u might as well get urself killed and if u assured of a new heaven and earth, that's perfection.
don't get me wrong... its ok to excel, in fact its biblical, but if we keep wanting things to go right all the time, and we must be in control of all situations, then... lotsa "hmms" follow...

~ but of cos the opposite is also true lah... cant be too slack and assume everything will run ok. which, i think was wad i did too much... ah wells.

how to balance??

indecisiveness vs democratic, wanting all the opinions, and coming our wif a decision

ah wells...
i guess i did lots of mistakes, and im pretty sure i did irk ppl with my slow paced tortoise-like decision makings while others may (or may not) expect a chop-chop-i-want-this-done-now type of decision making..

pretty indecisive..
ah wells, it seems like in every camp comm im in, i learn abt God...

He is faithful and gracious.
and mostly in all the comms i was in.

He is Jehovah Jireh.
He provides.
seriously provides.

some instances...

in a bbgb camp for the greenridge pri kids last yr... we were in need of tents like desperately.
camp was only a FEW days time. and we had no tents, due to some complicated stuff..
to cut a damn lorsor long story short, we got 14 tents when we only needed 7-8.
He provided like twice the amt!

and this happens every camp.
He provides. and provides excess!

happened in the june PCF camp, and happened again in Camp Lost?.
He really provides.
He really provides!

minute things like paper, mattresses (and of course Alwyn's Dad.. thanks LOTS!), various logistics, etc, shows alot.

and 'big picture' things like the campsite. we got it at a deal
plus $$.

(tho we're in deficit now after the camp, im pretty sure "smthg's good going to happen smthg good is in store, we're together again.. ..." oops.. quote too much... :P:P )

and of course... i think God has put together one of the best camp committees you can ever find man! camp comm, im serious.
*tries hard to put on grim serious face, but as usual can't.*

truly, i think He has answered our prayers on unity.
teamwork.

thanks alot people!!!!

[not in order of anything]

Thanks Tian En
Thanks Meliza
Thanks Yansing
Thanks Abel
Thanks Alwyn
Thanks Lydia
Thanks Raymund
Thanks Mark
Thanks Mag
Thanks Fuji
Thanks Angeline
Thanks MayFern

and of course can guess wad's next.

Thank our God.

Who is there like You, O God.


~~~note.. i dun usually blog like this.. hahha rare la.. hmm.. or is it a sign of things to come? i dunno. this is pretty lor sor and boring. pls dont read.