Tuesday, April 24, 2007

MUFHU

my utmost for His highest la..


im sure many people are doing this devo too....

but im pretty thankful i got this bk, given to me....
almost everyday it sorta speaks to me pretty relevantly... mostly to how we serve Him, and ministry (or ministries for some of us)....

yesterday's and today's are especially true and relevant for me at this point of time.

in summary, don't worship your work to God, and don't desire 'spiritual success'. sucess defined as "success measured by, and patterned after, the form set by this religious age in which we now live". like how many converts u got lah, how tight an event turned out, how many ppl raise hands during rally, etc....


great reminder.

Thursday, April 19, 2007

just wondering hor, why..........

we had CCA drive the past 3 days....

so cf being cf, we gave out "bookmarks" which served as gospel tracts.....

and seeing all the reactions by different people was pretty interesting...
quite a number of people, seeing our bright yellow "Polytechnic Christian Fellowship" banner, just siamed......

so as we gave out there were mostly 3 responses:
~ pause to see what's it all about, then ask "ehh, what club is this har?"
~ just take and go...
~ just never take and go...

so it was interesting when there was this guy, who took it, then gave it back...."sorry, i am antiChrist. :) "

which made me wonder leh....

why ah... got such term called 'antiChrist', but no such terms like 'antiBuddha', 'antiMohammad', 'antiSaibaba', or even 'anti-atheism' :D

The Truth is jarring. makes peoples' ears ache.

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

Post-attachment and Pre-year3 thoughts

The past few weeks was attachment. The next few months will be Year 3. My final (i hope) year in poly.

i guess the lessons i learnt (thru the hard way) will make me view life, and even myself a wee bit differently...

HE has really been such a faithful God. i guess my 7wks of attachment, He has really been there. so so so so thankful to a so so so so Cool God who's definitely not soso.

First off, a pretty good company. A little higher pay than my classmates.

second, little did i expect them to offer a FYP (final yr proj)! so... my fyp is secured earlier than the others! and to think i was fretting who should i approach to be my teammates... since i'm far from close with my classmates.

i guess it was these blessings that somehow motivated me throughout the few weeks.... cuz it IS true.... somehow, studying life is a lil more enjoyable than work life.

not that the job sucks... it was really good actually. the job scope fitted me! lab work and office work combined. i think i would have died-ed if it was office work. but, somehow, studying life has less stress on the mind and body. ok.. maybe not so much less stress, but a different type.

i guess having to work especially when it is such a small environment, and everyone's eyes are on you and how you do your work, gives me the nerves...... Gave me the nerves rather.

and i am so not used to being on my toes all the time. the contrary rather.. not that i do handstand all the time la :P maybe must go take up ballet... then will really be on my toes all the time :D NAH! i can not imagine myself doing ballet.



oh wells, it just wasnt a good feeling that my work revealed all my chao kuan. or rather, it was more obvious bah... and having to deal with (extremely, sometimes too extreme) high expectations....

i think i crumbled.

i guess it all revealed how flawed i am, how incompetent i really am. ....
oh wells.

time to work on each of them.


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and here comes my final poly year. Poly life is just so fast. (ok at this station in life for me la... later comes NS life, work life, retirement life etc....) but, yea lo.. it does feel like time is accelerated in this 3+ years.

so for new poly (or JC or ITE or private schs) students, make your poly life count. REALLY. make full use of every opportunity you have in your post-secondary life. esp when it comes to sharing His good news! You really won't have much time though graduation seems far! it ain't. and campus is the time where there will be more seekers in your sphere of friends. (ok thats just for me...)

i guess... starting and ending is easy. (though whether it is started or finished well is another thing :P )

and here i am in the first week of sch forgetting that there's no lesson today, simply cuz its the first week :P

and having all these ideas and hopes.
and saying things like "must make full use and opportunity of this year" since it IS my last opportunity to do anything.

but i know that darn tendency of mine to get distracted along the way.

oh wells. i hope this year wd be fruitful. I'm pretty sure it will be.
only if i am willing to allow Him to do so.
(then skarly later i go home, i see my fridge filled with nothing but fruits :D durian-apple-orange-mangosteen-pongpong-chilli-brinjal milkshake anyone? O.O.P.S )

but i really do hope that this year to see what and how he will change me. and even cf.
there HAS to be a purpose for putting us in wadeva circumstance or positions....

i guess many people + myself does feel anticipative (eh nic..got such word meh?) of what this year holds.


Friday, April 06, 2007

i am a Christian.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting, "I'm clean living'."
I'm whispering, "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!





got this from someone's blog, who got it from an email.

Sunday, April 01, 2007


probably will be using multiply more now.
www.nicrome.multiply.com

tho, i doubt i will update as often now... wasnt often in the first place.
so less often of lesser often, means not often. which is not really frequently, and not hourly either. by the minute? nah.. later kena arrested for overblogging and a nuisance on the web community.. just send virus to all u ppl, and juz write some politically challenging, and racist thing here..

and of course download stuff by the terabytes, and make sure i get noticed by the govt.


ok.


what did i just type???
don't get it?
neither do i leh :P:P

short-circuited.