boring random post

different ones will have different definitons of what is a 'true friend'. is it one who is willing to be crazy with u? or is it the one who is willing to sit down, and listen to your struggles and rants?

sometimes, you can analyse people, and their character, when failure arrives.....
be it their failure or yours.

"huh? how can my failure see how my friend's character is???"

hmm... i might be wrong, but sometimes when you fail, or fall short of what has been expected of you, glance at how your friend will react...

will he/she encourage you and asks you to try again?
or laughs at you for making a fool of yourself?


in my view... true friends exhort one another...
not exalt. exhort.

that means must rebuke when your friend is going astray.

truth always hurts.
but it's that. it's the truth...

have we become so friendly that we've forgotten to be a friend?
there's a difference you know...


sigh, it's hard to think rationally when you're angry, disgusted, sad, betrayed, or even in love...

"Here I am, Lord. Is it I Lord?"

Here I Am Lord
~Dan Schutte


I, the Lord of sea and sky,
I have heard My people cry.
All who dwell in dark and sin,
My hand will save.
I who made the stars of night,
I will make their darkness bright.
Who will bear My light to them?
Whom shall I send?


Chorus:
Here I am Lord, Is it I Lord?
I have heard You calling in the night.
I will go Lord, if You lead me.
I will hold Your people in my heart.


I, the Lord of snow and rain,
I have borne my peoples pain.
I have wept for love of them,
They turn away.
I will break their hearts of stone,
Give them hearts for love alone.
I will speak My word to them,
Whom shall I send?
(Chorus)


I, the Lord of wind and flame,
I will tend the poor and lame.
I will set a feast for them,
My hand will save
Finest bread I will provide,
Till their hearts be satisfied.
I will give My life to them,
Whom shall I send?
(Chorus)

your friends...

anyway... here is a good poem for you people who never attend adult svc... think about it. and check your own response to your friends here on earth... :

"MY FRIEND"
My Friend, I Stand In Judgement Now
And Feel That You're To Blame Somehow
On Earth I Walked with You Day By Day
And Never Did You Point The Way

You Knew The LORD In Truth And Glory
But Never Did You TellThe Story
My Knowledge Then Was Very Dim
You Could Have Led Me Safely ToHIM

Though We Lived Together On The Earth
You Never Told Me Of The Second Birth
And Now I Stand This Day Condemned
Because You Failed To Mention HIM

You Taught Me Many Things, That's True
I Called You Friend, I Trusted You
But I Learn Now That It's Too Late
You Could Have Kept Me From This Fate

We Walked By Day And Talked By Night
And Yet
You Showed Me Not The Light
You Let Me Live And Love And Die
You Knew
I'd Never Live On High

Yes, I Called you Friend In Life
And Trusted You Thru Joy And Strife
And Yet, On Coming To The End
I Cannot Now Call
You My Friend

[The Author Is Unknown]

i have a dream.

hmmm...

i wonder...

if a certain dream (or dreams) i had recently meant anything.

i dreamt that my muslim classmate was speaking to me, while we were going home frm sch.... and he said to me " i really very interested in christianity, i have been thinking about life issues, and stuff. ur religion really makes sense." and he went on to ask theological questions.

it did seem very very real!

though not the 1st, this was another of those dreams where i wake up, wondering if it's real or a dream.

this will make the "dreams-that-felt-so-real-and-spoke-to-me" list to 5.



and i wonder also if writing this post will put me in trouble also....

"... seems so far.... "

"... God, You seem so far away
a thousand miles or so each day..."

when i say i know what you mean by " God seems far away", i mean it.

but, as people always say... " who moved? you, or God", i know it's true also, that it is i.

why so?

cos recently ( or rather for the past whole month), this has been my spiritual life.

like i said in my previous post, i did nothing to remedy it.

i don't usually do this.

but can u pray for me?

addressing

was i blinded?

not literally.

but you know what i mean.

but.. blinded by what?

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was it the assignments, reports and tests (a great way to start the year) that were stressing me out?

was it a quarrel?

was it the fact that i am (and still) disappointed with myself, regarding issues yet to be addressed (and no... not the place of habitation) ?

was it tiredness?

numbness?

weariness?

was it cos i never set out to start what i had commited to do?

was it cos i have made some bloody wrong mistakes before?

why did i commit to this when i knew it would drain me?

why had i pressed on when people around me quitted?

why did i give up when everyone persevered?

what lies ahead for this ministry?

with figures of authority not setting THE example.

with no clear indication what is ahead.

with almost everyone outgoing or non-committed, or M.I.A.

while those FEW who remain.....

sigh

sigh

maybe my way of defence is to escape and not think about it.

or rationalise until things go in my favour.

talk about being in tune with God.

I wish i was.

like then.

or did it even happen?

i don't know.

i know where the problem is.

i know i gotta address these various issues of mine.

i know God has a plan for me.

i know this and that facts.

what do i do about it?

nothing.

in fact, gets worse.

but i am feeling better, as contrast to what you've just read at the top part of this entry. i was numb, tired, weary the past month. going thru day by day like an aimless scum wandering in the desert.... erm.. ok, not the best analogy to describe, but cant think of anything better.

i believe it's God's grace.

but it's time i REALLY stop taking His grace for granted.

and to also start to see His other aspects.

loving, caring, accepting,... the 'soft' side to God, and not only His graciousness and judgement.

someone recently pointed it
out to me........ ....... ....... .......

starting good... should finish good? right?

for me? no...

start good, finish lousy.

don't know what i am talking about?

neither do i.

oh, and a cliche for you:

"have a blessed new year ahead! i hope in the year ahead, you grow closer to HIM."

but... i really do mean it...

don't wanna be trapped.

" if the devil can't slow you down, he'll speed you up."

i don't want to fall into the trap!!!!

can i last thru?

will i be able to last thru?
will i be burnt out?
should i give up?

give up what?

which?

darn.

what if i do?
what if i don't?

why is this happening now?
why am i so weary?

why do i have to wait till a "revelation", till i give up something, that i should have a long time ago?
why did i linger on in the meaninglessness of it, hoping the outcome will be something i wished, and dreamed?
how stoopeed of me to have done so.

why?





can i last thru?

YOU know the way out...

there are many people in a building...

it's on fire.

imminent death by roasting (or fried, or barbequed) is inevitable.

but........ ....

there is one way out of this.

but only YOU know about it.

what do you do?

sneak out by that way, without telling the rest, and then shut the way tight?




or tell the rest about this way out?
with great urgency of course.

erm....

qn: what do you blog when u have nothing left to blog?
ans: fulfill some stupid quiz, everyone was doing one month ago...


7 things that scare me:
1: the wrath of God.
2: the potential that our fart is flammable, and explosive...
3: your body odour
4: erm... you???
5: boo!
6: a thing that scares me.
7: something else that scares me.


7 things i love the most:
1: God.
2: Praising Him
3: the potential that our fart is flammable, and explosive...
4: being serious.
5: being lame.
6: sweet foods
7: love?


7 important things in my room:
1: the floor.
2: the ceiling.
3: the walls. [quite obvious right??? if not no room at all... duh!]
4: my bed.
5: my car
6: my lion [for MY lunch....]
7: that guy sleeping. [i.e: me!]


7 random facts about me:
1: i am random.
2: i am not random.
3: i am as random as i seem.
4: i am not as random as i seem.
5: really... i am and am not random.
6: it is a fact.
7: it is?


7 things i wanna do when i die:
1: meet God
2: Praise Him!
3: praise Him!
4: praise Him!
5: praise Him!
6: praise Him!
7: praise Him!


7 things i can do:
1: do this stupid quiz.
2: complement others?
3: flush down a whole dustbin's contents [somehow containing an undie] into the toilet bowl, with a friend of course....
4: sleep everyday
5: eat everyday
6: piss everyday
7: shit everyday


7 things i can't do yet:
1: drive
2: know everything.. duh!
3: forget about that flushing-down-the-contents incident....
4: sleep non-stop
5: eat non-stop
6: piss non-stop
7: shit non-stop


7 words i say the most:
1: "erm"
2: "urm"
3: "huh???"
4: "right"
5: "ok"
6: "hmm?"
7: "hmmmmmm..."


7 celeb crushes:
1: lime crush
2: crushed ice
3: crushed crush?
4: rush
5: brush
6: blush
7: slush


7 peeps i'd love to see doing this:
1: Peeping Tom
2: Peeping Harry
3: Mrs Sir
4: Mr Miss
5: Mark Cheong (OI!! two calls liao! hahahaha)
6: YOU!
7: Your hamster. (no hamster??? go buy one... NOW!)



erm... Jon.... Don't you LMAO (Loving Mickeymouse's Arbituary Osteoporisis) . or LAMO. or LOMA. or whatever.