Tuesday, February 08, 2011
Thursday, February 03, 2011
it's CNY again.
The weather, the fake joyous occasion, the fake conversations, the fake harmony, the fake bondedness, as if the families have always been chummy and close.
Familiar as it is, it is a stark stark reminder of what it shouldn't have been. Relationships, family should be better, but often it ain't.
Much as there's a drudgery to cny, is it more than a ritual of small talk, and reunions? There must be something in cny, that people ARE actually willing to go through the drudgery, the motions and the awkwardness.
While cny is a dark reflection of what is not there, there can be hope for what can be.
In every culture, there is at least a feast festival where people have reunions with their family. Cny for chinese, hari raya puasa for malays, pongal/deepavali for the indians, thanksgiving for the angmohs, and the jews too! (tho i forgot what's it called).
Surely, some anthropologist might wanna tell me why such a trend exists in almost, if not all cultures of this world.
It's as if, reunions and joyful feasts were meant to be. Or it's meant to have.. erm.. Meaning?
Fractured families are platforms for the Lord to break thru. To us, it might represent over 100 ppl, and dozens of conflicts and fractures. But to God, it's just a family. He definitely can.
Then of course, what role should i do? Or rather, should i even want to chup my nose into others? Or do i even want to do anything in the first place? Cuz more often than not, we don't really bother, much less want to have a role.
Can there be hope? Can it be possible?
Families and relationships in the presence of the One who created them, is something that should and must be hoped for.
As time flows, even as a former AC Boy, i begin to see how chinese culture is really so profound. If you actually know some of festivals' actual meaning. As a christian moreover, many facets of chinese culture, or at least the old fashioned kind, make so much sense in light of the bible.
Thus there's much hope, cuz leading a family in the future with the Word as guide, you'll know that the culture that He put us in, actually comes to fullness in Christ.
新年恩满,主力充满。
I wonder if that is even correct or right to do. Hahaha.. Just thought there has to be something better than 新年快乐 or 恭喜发财。
:)
Saturday, January 29, 2011
peer-mentoring
even in the coporate world, mentors are usually ppl u observe, and people who have lived a life of experience, and processed it enough to be wise about it.
it's hard also in the majority of singapore church services cuz of the limitations of the English Language, and the christiany songs are usually between God and i.
there's so many things to think about, but there are brothers and sisters who put this as an equal priority of our lives, serving God together, and this sense of loving God with the same heart together.
We had lots of fun doing ushering today. Yee and I will banter nonstop with our lame jokes and only we'll laugh at them. We did unexpected stuff today, since that was the tagline given.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Hana (cover by Gabriel Jiang)
blessed to have brothers who show me it's possible.
Friday, January 21, 2011
real world experience?
growing up in church culture all these years is both a privilege and a sheltered world. Privilege cuz growing up in God's house.. Of cuz privilege la!
But ultra sheltered and me being me, with my family shelter too, it stuns my growth in many other areas too.
Had dinner with kel, celest, kest. Closest church friends for the past 3years of this life's season. Thankful for kel who initiated. And the fellowship and the teaching tips and the insights.
Got home and thought... How much of the real working world experience should i experience? I've never done so, and now i'm going straight into social sector and still within the shelteredness of the christian industry.
Do i need some real working life experience before i'm able to understand the struggles?
Won't just being faithful be enough? Won't living the called life be enough? God i don't know. But i do want to be faithful and live your called life.
God in my sheltered life, always be my shelter, knowing that taking risks is not gonna sabo things, and my plans, but staying faithful is more important.
Even my thinking is not critical enough. I still can't think sharply. God if You called me here.. Help me to see you daily. Let my life be an outflow to kids and to ppl around. Cuz You have loved me so very much.
Monday, January 03, 2011
another thing i learnt
another thing i learnt
ownself kena.
Being in His presence is such a joy, but when we get double minded, and do idiotic sins, we lose His presence. And that is torture.
that is why so many families screw up when their fathers arent walking right with the Lord. why? as the head, when he sins, he brings sin to the whole family. hence the stories in the bible, where the whole family kena cuz of the lao peh's sin.
consumerism resulting in spectatorship (sit there and watch and gain),