after staying at the high-class stable :P

or the palace of the golden horses.....

oh wells...
mixed feelings...

many areas of my own personal growth, i suppose...
and you see a new persepective of others with your interactions.
made better friends with some, and was disappointed with others.

oh wells... i guess familiarity DOES breed contempt....
the other party's/parties' fault are magnified cuz of the duration you know each other.

as i reflected on the bus back to S'pore ALONE (yea i was alone with no one i knew... which was good cuz it gave me a time to reflect...), i realised alot of things which i probably need to deal with.
sometimes from my own mistakes, and that of others.

and sometimes the erm,mistakes or 'just a slip of tongue' we make behind the backs of so-called friends are not exactly the most constructive...
i would rather you come up to me and tell me whatever you're pissed at or have some comments... i will greatly appreciate it rather than you kp-ing behind me and some other guy you kp-ed to, telling me what you kp-ed about. :)
and we go along life kp-ing abt this complaining about that,
saying 'loving and selfless' things like "it should be like that.", "he shouldn't do this in this manner", "my way is correct, his way is wrong", "the world would be a better place if so and so thought things this way"....

and we go on in life complaning about others complaining, and kp-ing about how
so-and-so kp too much, and complaing about how so-and-so kp too much, and kp-ing about others complain.

oh wells, having said these, who am i to say this?
for i am not exactly very constructive sometimes...

and as i reflected on the bus (both literally and non-literally, cuz the bus windows were pretty smooth.... :P) that the more we kp about someone, the more we do not see the faults and cracks of our own character. and ironically, we'll end up exactly as the other party whom we're urinating on.ERM. i meant the other party whom we're pissed off at.

oh wells. lets grow in whatever areas of our lives together.
it's a refinement.

not easy we all know.


and stagnant growth=no growth=dying.


guess i've been blessed (or cursed?) with many people around me who are dogmatic and idealistic and sometimes legalistic in nature.
it's a process that has sometimes encouraged me with their idealism to change this and impact that....
but it's also a process that has cheesed me off once too many times with their "my way is always correct" stance, and wanting others to join them in their passions and whatever they're currently at or on, (or their calling)...

maybe this is me too? for there is a saying "you are your worst enemy". and it can mean that the quirks and flaws we hate about the ppl around us, are the actual things in our own character that annoys others...

maybe this is a chance for me to grow in dealing with people of this erm, 'calibre'...

or it could also be that i should be as decisive as these ppl around me. i know i cheesed off many with my indecisiveness sometimes and i do know full well it's not helpful sometimes. i also know that it's something i need improvement on.
*looks up at text above on what i would rather appreciate you would have done...*

both ways.
it's not a single way street. and we need two hands to clap... (though we can also snap our fingers...... ;P )


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but i'm having mixed feelings too about what the next few months. in web. where am i? i felt so torn. so neither-here-nor-there.

i knew going for the adult sessions in the camp would benefit me (which it did... solid!) but during the camp i got to see the perspective that we can be encouragers in the ministry.

yup... but am i called here to serve?
i don't know. not yet at least.
and it will be pointless and defeating the purpose if we serve with no calling. this is a fact, im sure is pretty obvious...

but we see people coming and 'serve' every week. and they come to service juz to 'serve'... or rather they're on duty that week. but i digress.

GOD, be sovereign.

on the 060606

cool date today....

no.

not ang zor (red dates). nor that fruit that camels eat....

and no.... not the pat tor type... i'm still single =P .


anyway... today's 060606. and the superstitious and the enterprising get all worked up today. be it a movie on Old Men ( or is it Omen????), good astrological day to get married, or bad luck day and u intend to stay at home cuz u scared today's gonna be the end of the world, or whatever...

but what's all the hype about 666?
it came from Revelations 13:18.
But before we go into a debate or whatever, maybe we should have IBS (lvl 4)... haha....


but why should we fear the end of the world?
why should we fear death?

we will fear, only if we do not have any hope. and if we have any notion of judgement, all the more, we will fear.

do u fear?
or do u have the hope?

since u know u have the hope, what should u do?

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actually this post was to jump on the "bandwagon" about post-GDOP.
(i make it seem so trivia)

well...


The Global Day of Prayer 2006.

to be frankly honest, GDOP was like any prayer meeting
the difference?

that many churches and christians came AS ONE.
that you see a preview of the day where Singapore makes a U-turn and WILL confess that HE is LORD.
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.
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a man was shouting about how christians are full of hypocrites and politics. and i dunnowadelsehewasshoutingabout but i heard lotsa "riots!.......riots!!@$&"

need i say more?
much has been said already. (see archives)



anyway, it was really a privilege to be a flag-bearer/flaggy/flagger/flag-waver? .
manage to hold the same flag throughout. was wondering if i would get any country that i was burdened before to pray for, like Cambodia?(i wasn't and still isn't sure though. but that another time.)

and it was communist North Korea...




will this trigger a burden to pray for North Korea?



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lotsa things to do. not much time.

on a dark, and stormy sunday....

it was pouring super heavily a late sunday morning...

4 guys went to lunch, or rather, brunch, and wanted to go back to church.
but was pretty difficult to go back due to the rain.

a couple saw them and GAVE these 4 fellas their umbrella.






later that day...
their car skidded and crashed.
it was a fatal one.

they lost their son, and mother.

while the woman is in critical condition, with a ruptured liver.


pray.

ya man.... quite true...

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading... You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose. Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily. But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

impulse is not good..

done things on impulse?

or rather, thought thru the whole thing, weighing the pros and cons, and coming to the conclusion that u might just regret it if u do carry it out, but heck.... Impossible Is Nothing.... (huh?)
oops.... wrong tagline... pai seh...
i mean, Just Do It....

now regretting something i knew i wd regret, which i carried on anyway, and now regretting something i knew i wd regret, which i carried on anyway, and now.....

thought thru it impulsively, or impulsively thought thru it?

doesnt make sense...

darn.

i just hope for the best... that something screw up, and it didnt get thru....

hahaaha!


but what was the impetus that i carried it out anyway?

another of those few-posts-in-one....

something's really wrong when you're perpetually tired.

never refreshed.... what's wrong???

i dunno.... too tired to find out... :D:D

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was talking to a friend (u know who u r, if u ever read this... hahaha!) ,
abt the ever engaging topic BGR....
(not a short form of Burger, unfortunately..)
haha...

contentment is needed in this discontent world.......


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there are things in life which are necessary, but not a neccessity.

get your proirities right...

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And in life, just do your best, but don't try too hard.
sometimes if u try to hard to do things, like pleasing people, it will backfire...
live to please God.
After all, why were we created even? (hint: glory)

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and it's pretty annoying that people blog a few lines and then go on to another topic without elaborating.. and typing long underscores to make separating lines, claiming it's a few posts in one... sigh.. these people.

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and remember to brush your teeth twice a day. eat your veggies and fruits. dont eat too much oily food, and eat everything in moderation.
Also, be loyal to country. Don't speed. I'm Loving It. It's Finger Likin' Good
Join the Air Force, as it is like Nothing On Earth.

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hmm... why is the word depressed, 'depressed'? And not 'bloody-downcast' or 'super-sad-until-do-stupid-things'????

could it be because it is de-pressing on the race of life, where u just want to give it all up?


God, be glorified.
how?
when u feel life is so screwed up. so fatigued. so tired.

God, be LORD.
how?
when you have so many things (and people) bothering you. when you feel on the verge of breaking down.






a famous poem....


DON'T QUIT
When things go wrong as they sometimes will.
When the road you’re trudging seems all up hill.
When funds are low and the debts are high.
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don’t you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow –
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out –
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far:
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit –
It’s when things seem worst that you must NOT quit.

familiarity breeds contempt?

familiarity breeds contempt

Long experience of someone or something can make one so aware of the faults as to be scornful. For example, They were best of friends, but as time went on, both of them started to quarrel a lot as they knew each others' weaknesses too much- familiarity breeds contempt. The idea is much older, but the first recorded use of this expression was in Chaucer's Tale of Melibee (c. 1386).

hmmm.....

trust is to be earned. and it can be lost too......
easier lost than earned.

ever had a situation where u know a person(s) so well that after awhile, people lose the respect for each other, the respect that began the friendship and even held it. the friends know each other well, their weaknesses, strengths, passions, crushes etc.... then it turns to intense dislike for each other(s).... that's the definition of contempt in this context, by the way.

friendship to disunity.
and enmity...

what sort of life are we going thru without friendships?
yet when the very friends u seek become your worst enemy....

ironic? no.... steelic.... :D
irony with carbon.
add chromium to be stainless steel....

erm
erm
erm....


haha...


but... i wonder what i would do and how to react if such a thing happens to me.... if it ever happens, how will i deal with such a situation(s)amicably...

call upon Him lor....

what do we talk about when we get together????

20You, however, did not come to know Christ that way.
21Surely you heard of him and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus.
22You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires;
23to be made new in the attitude of your minds;
24and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.

25Therefore each of you must put off falsehood and speak truthfully to his neighbor, for we are all members of one body.
26"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, 27and do not give the devil a foothold.
28He who has been stealing must steal no longer, but must work, doing something useful with his own hands, that he may have something to share with those in need.

29Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen.
30And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption.
31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice.
32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Ephesians 5
1Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children
2and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.

3But among you there must not be even a hint of sexual immorality, or of any kind of impurity, or of greed, because these are improper for God's holy people.
4Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving.

-Ephesians 4:20-5:4

i'm sorry Lord.

can tahan?

refining process never is easy.

each time you think that you have solved your problems, your footholds, your issues, and that they are no longer there which will make us jump for joy....

and at the most idiotic time, you find that no, they are far from being addressed.

we need GOD.

HE's.refining. us. can tahan not?

and sometimes i feel this refining process take place when we have annoying people.
or rather, people or traits that annoy and irritate us. or even make us angry.

it is always said that we are our worst enemy....
we see the fault in others, but not ourselves.


how can it be that i am liddat too??
no... i am faultless...
i have all the right to point out your mistakes, but me? having those same mistakes??? RIDICULOUS!!!!that's an insult!


sometimes we tend to think this way.....

people around you that annoy you greatly?

"he should be doing this!"
"she should have done it this way..."
"i don't understand why must you always be like that!"
"look what i have done for you, what sacrifices i have made for you. and ask yourself what you have done for me?"


familiar?

why is it familiar?

is it coz we heard it from people around us??

why is it not because it is we ourselves who think like that too?

when we see the fault of others, guess we should just ask, ponder, reflect, contemplate the question why we get frustrated or pissed in the forst place...

is it coz we ourselves are liddat too?????

it's not gonna be easy.