Sunday, November 26, 2006

here it is again! and again! .....

somethings we cannot ignore.

it's the same old repeat-on-different-times-and-i-am-hearing-it-again kinda thing

reconciliation.
i cannot ignore it man.
yesterday during pre-fishbone prayer by 3sa.
today during 12pm svc worship.
and Galv's blog today...

i cannot ignore it.
especially during this week. this wk where its not so smooth.

i cannot.

it is a learning journey.
learning that refinement is far from over.

when things calm down and thoughts start to be rational again..
the situations really question my attitudes, my assumptions, my response.

i know what to change. i know which areas even.
but do i? do i carry it out?

it's a rhetoric.

and earlier in the yr where this kinda thing happened, it was disunity.
so i suppose it still holds yea?

disunity--reconciliation.
the year's not yet ended.
thing's might go awry the coming month.
be on our toes yea? ;)



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head-heart.
mind-emotional.

head knowledge is not heart knowledge.

i seem to be questioning myself on other things too.

what are my real motives behind doing / going whereever etc.
esp when circumstances make it that it's so convenient an excuse.

ah well.
i dun wanna cage a free bird with my foolishness.
i shall be wise in this area. ;) cannot afford to make any mistakes regarding this.
and you, the reader is not supposed to know what i am talking about.

oh well.

reconciliation.
discipline.
walk the talk.
being wise in whatever i was talking about.

:D

Thursday, November 23, 2006

utter disappointment.


utterly utterly disappointed with myself.
hai.

utter. not otter. :P

Monday, November 20, 2006

interesting saturday

~hike. with 18 blue monkeys, to see real monkeys at macritchie.

~30mins meeting with some guy calling himself "some guy".

~web.

~TFB trial.

~Halfway thru it. a take home lesson.
quote of saturday,
"so this teaches you that we should be Christ-like in front of, and behind people."


beware of what we say.
especially when we think no one is around to hear.
especially when we think that the worst case scenario won't happen and we joke bout it.
especially when it comes true.

and i wonder if this is blogworthy.





anyways. i shall do what i say.
not waste time.
shan't procrastinate.
but i'll start next week... :D :D :D

Friday, November 17, 2006

random thoughts.

this is bad. bad stewardship of time. what sort of person/christian am i telling others when i seem to delight in procrastination, and i so lack in diligence man!

gah.

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which brings me to this next point.


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don't give others a chance to poke holes in your character.
live a life worthy.
so that people will find it hard to look for descrepancies in our life.
ie what we talk and do doesn't link.

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it's 2.52am.
i got to reach the lab at 750am.
and it's not near the mrt.
not at all.


very gd stewardship of time.

very.
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Monday, November 13, 2006

test

tests come for us, when we least expect new people to come.
people who don't really seem like the rest of us, at that.


what shall we do?
how shall we respond?

i'm sure it's not our job to do so.
i'm sure it's their fault they can't fit.
i'm sure it's just too bad...
let's just enjoy ourselves lor.



who am i to say this???
i dunno what to think. i dunno what to feel. God, be in control. ARGH. let not my decisions be on what i feel, but on who You are. And You have a mighty plan for all of us involved. There's a greater reason came.For Your glory. God, refine me. Refine all of us.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Don't waste your life...

i'm reading this book of the same title as this post.

or rather, the other way round... this post has the same title as the book.

"nic! u actually read?? thought u were some retard who dunno how to read.. "
;P


yea.. this book "Don't waste your life" is about not wasting your life.
great title to sum it all up.

just like some movies have titles like "snakes on a plane" etc... don't watch lots of movies to crap about it.
maybe should have a movie called,
"this is a movie about this two people who fall in love and it gets complicated. with special hollywood effects."

anyways....


yea, Don't Waste Your Life's msg is don't waste your life...
need i say more?

well.. yea.. it's an inspiring book by John Plumber. or is that Piper? yea.. something like that. ;P

think it's a good and challenging read. challenges us to see what we are doing normally is really a waste of our life. and of course how not to lah! duh... hhaha

it's not a cheem book as i thought so... cuz it's not very thick, in quite readable font size (ie, not small lah.. not too large either.. ) and all these doesnt really matter.. its juz my fingers.. :P

hahha... but yea, its readable, and actually we're the target audience.. teens to young adults.. though its relevant for all!

yea, tho i'm still reading it halfway, it has challenged me about not wasting my life... and i supp that's wad many has been telling me.. that i have to be accountable one day how i spend my time.

scary thought, judging from the fact that i dont. spend it wisely that is.
priorities all mixed up. procrastinating the procrastination... thinking of how to excel, how to come up with a workplan etc., what it will be like if i had actually excelled in the things i did...
keyword: think.

oh well. yea to sum it up.. Don't Waste Your Life has really challenged how things i do is actually making me waste my life away, not living a fruitful God-fearing, God-glorifying life, and Him in control as LORD, and proclaiming Him as the mighty saviour and creator that He is.

anyways, i gotta go read blogs, wait for ppl to chat me on msn and go youtubing now. bye....
;P



Tuesday, November 07, 2006

WOW-- worship, obedience, witness

hmm..


THE ANGEL STADIUM DECLARATION
AKA
PURPOSE DRIVEN COVENANT

Today I am stepping across the line. I'm tired of waffling, and I'm finished with wavering. I've made my choice; the verdict is in; and my decision is irrevocable. I'm going God's way. There's no turning back now!

I will live the rest of my life serving God's purposes with God's people on God's planet for God's glory. I will use my life to celebrate his presence, cultivate his character, participate in his family, demonstrate his love, and communicate his Word.

Since my past has been forgiven, and I have a purpose for living and a home awaiting in heaven, I refuse to waste any more time or energy on shallow living, petty thinking, trivial talking, thoughtless doing, useless regretting, hurtful resenting, or faithless worrying. Instead I will magnify God, grow to maturity, serve in ministry, and fulfill my mission in the membership of his family.

Because this life is preparation for the next, I will value worship over wealth, "we" over "me," character over comfort, service over status, and people over possessions, position, and pleasures. I know what matters most, and I'll give it all I've got. I'll do the best I can with what I have for Jesus Christ today.

I won't be captivated by culture, manipulated by critics, motivated by praise, frustrated by problems, debilitated by temptation, or intimidated by the devil. I'll keep running my race with my eyes on the goal, not the sidelines or those running by me. When times get tough, and I get tired, I won't back up, back off, back down, back out, or backslide. I'll just keep moving forward by God's grace. I'm Spirit-led, purpose-driven and mission-focused, so I cannot be bought, I will not be compromised, and I shall not quit until I finish the race.

I'm a trophy of God's amazing grace, so I will be gracious to everyone, grateful for everyday, and generous with everything that God entrusts to me.

To my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, I say: However, whenever, wherever, and whatever you ask me to do, my answer in advance is yes! Wherever you lead and whatever the cost, I'm ready. Anytime. Anywhere. Anyway. Whatever it takes Lord; whatever it takes! I want to be used by you in such a way, that on that final day I'll hear you say, "Well done, thou good and faithful one. Come on in, and let the eternal party begin!"



WOW-worship, obedience, witness.