and i thank You Lord

great song!

And I Thank You Lord for the trials that come my way
in that way I can grow each day as I let You lead
and thank you lord for the patience those trials bring
in the process of growing i can learn to care

chorus
but it goes against the way i am to put my human nature down
and let the spirit take control of all i do
cause when those trials come my human nature shouts the things to do
and god's soft prompting can be easily ignore

verse 2
i thank you lord with each trial i feel inside
that your're there to help lead and guide me away from wrong
cause you promised lord that with ev'ry testing
that your way of escaping is easier to bear

chorus

verse 3
i thank you lord for the vict'ry that growing brings
in surrender of ev'rything life is so worthwhile
and i thank you lord that when ev'rthing's put in place
out in front i can see your face and it's there you belong

end
and i thank You Lord
that when everything's put in place
Out in front i can see Your Face
And it's there You belong

no higher calling

it has been quite an awesome week.
very much intense too! very.

ups and downs with 3 of my closer friends. God is teaching me smthg :)

this song has been stuck onto me since npcf's fri prayer meeting.

No Higher Calling
Lenny LeBlanc, Greg Gulley

Key: G

Verse:
G            C2
Down at your feet, Oh Lord,
       D         G
is the most high place
        C2
In your presence, Lord,
   F    D     G
We seek your Face
   F    D     G
We seek your Face


Chorus:
         C2              D
There is no higher calling
B7           Em
No greater honor
        Am
Than to bow
    D                 G
and kneel before your throne
    C2                 D
I'm amazed at your glory
B7               Em
embraced by your mercy
Am         D               G
Oh Lord, I live to worship you

indeed man! no higher calling and no greater honour than to bow b4 Him!

:D

too many. candy canes.

too many happening things happening.

shan't write them all here.

like i said.. too many.
some too personal.
too many, too personal. The past week (last wed till today, a wed) has been too dramatic. ok.. maybe within. or withins. can't really deny the intensity. or intensities. :D


but this i must share...
CDOP has been another testimony of His faithfulness. and grace. and providence.
honestly, i felt it as a breakthru in SP...
Mr Tan Hang Cheong, new principal of SP came and shared Luke1:26.. same passage as howie shared on sat! and apparently, a few churches had it preached recently too.. how very interesting!
Ed Wong shared on revival. and miraculously we got him in less than 2 wks. looking back, it has to be divine appointment. yfc's chee chong(?) couldn't make it. neither could cf's fuji. ok.. i make it sound so trivial... but u gotta know the background:P

it just was so surreal. we have principal of SP sharing and praying with us leh. in my head i was like, PRINCIPAL LEH! cool sia... :D
07 has been a breakthru yr in SP....
i needn't say more.

it's an honour to be a servant of the Most High!
thank you LORD.


but as i told eug and fuj (hey it rhymes!!!)... my race aint over yet, even as much as i do want to give up at times...
but it's real exciting.

it seems i have lost even more ability to reflect.
oh wells.

He knows my thoughts, that's assuring. but at the same time, it can be 'discomforting' also. a journey of Holiness.

Thank You Father.




something which i thot was super interesting ... it was shared during RAYS prayer by charmaine... use it as an evangelistic tool this christmas! :P

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Legend has it that in the 18th Century somewhere in Europe any public display of Christianity was forbidden. No crosses or Bibles were allowed and the Christians were greatly oppressed. One old man, a candy maker by profession, was particularly distressed by this. He loved the Lord with all of his heart and couldn't stand to not share that love with the world. His heart especially went out to the children when Christmas drew near and no one was allowed to have a nativity scene (or crèche`) on display in their homes. He prayed for God to show him some way to make Christmas gifts for the children which would teach them the story of Christ.

The answer was the candy cane. The candy cane was in the shape of a shepherd"s staff to show them Jesus is our Shepherd and we are His flock. A sheep follows his own shepherd, knows his voice, and trusts him and knows that he is totally safe with him. The sheep will follow no other shepherd but their own. This is how we are to be with Jesus if we truly follow Him ( John 10:11; Psalm 23:1; Isaiah 40:11)

Upside down the candy cane was a "J", the first letter of Jesus' name. ( Luke 1:31) It was made of hard candy to remind us that Christ is the rock of our salvation. The wide red stripes on the candy cane were to represent the blood He shed on the cross for each one of us so that we can have eternal life through Him. He redeems us and cleanses us with His shed blood - the only thing that can wash away our sin. ( Luke 22:20) . The white stripes on a candy cane represented the virgin birth, sinless life and purity of our Lord. He is the only human being who ever lived on this earth who never committed a single sin. Even though He was tempted just as we are, He never sinned. ( I Peter: 22) The three narrow red stripes on candy canes symbolized that by His stripes, or wounds, we are healed and the Trinity - the Father, Son (Jesus) and Holy Spirit. Before the crucifixion Jesus was beaten; the crown of thorns was placed on His head; His back was raw from the whip. We are healed by those wounds. He bore our sorrows and by His stripes we are healed. ( Isaiah 53:3) The flavoring in the candy cane was peppermint, which is similar to hyssop. Hyssop is of the mint family and was used in Old Testament times for purification and sacrifice just as Jesus sacrificed His life for ours. ( John 19:29; Psalm 51:7)

The old candy maker told them that when we break our candy cane it reminds us that Jesus' body was broken for us. When we have communion it is a reminder of what He did for us. ( I Cor. 11:24) If we share our candy cane and give some to someone else in love because we want to, it represents that same love of Jesus because He is to be shared with one another in love. ( I John 4:7,8) God gave Himself to us when He sent Jesus. He loved us so much He wants us to spend eternal life with Him... which we can do if we accept Jesus in our hearts as Savior and Lord. ( John 1:12; John 3:3,16) Some people believe this story of the candy cane is just a legend. Others believe it really happened. We do not know for sure exactly how the candy cane was invented, but there is one thing for certain... it is an excellent picture of Christ and His love for you.

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cool eh?

one life. live it!

whoa

so many things.
so many things happened within so short a time.

things changed.
dramatically.

and i know God is mouding and revealing more of personalities.
flaws in me.


cool journey.

prayer in friendship.

i'm beginning to see the difference in friendships where we prayed for the friendship itself.

there just is that... difference.

so people. be warned.
your friendship may change when the parties pray over it...

God is our heavenly friend.

yest and yest's yest.

fyp presentation. over!
big load off our chests man. and no... no one went for any heart bypass operation :P

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Exco.
oh wells.

sorry eliza.

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talked w my mum... never really had such deep talk before.. thank You God.

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Thanks bro for praying.
God will provide. the Best!
:D

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woots.
:D:D

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God will empower us.

sharp mind

wish i had a sharper mind :P

but being simple-minded is great too! oh wells... maybe i shd just remain the simplemindedness. think too much also lead no where.

dumbing down vs intellectualism
dumb intelligence

i guess i'm not meant to have a great mind... we all have different roles in this journey of life.

same old same old

same old same old...
i'm sick and tired of the same old same old...

and my fone or my number cant receive sms... how very much a great time.
sho ppl, if i dont reply.. chances are i didn't receive :D

same old. take them away. mould me, God.

i wonder...

... if lonliness drives people crazy. makes crazy actions, thoughts, and emotions seem normal.

oh wells, i may not be able to relate ever... not the lonliness part. the situation which makes people lonely. that situation. my grades will never allow me to...

oh wells, its a unique journey. cuz you and i are unique.

just like everyone else.

title lor....

Man will disappoint. God won't.
Man will fail. God won't.
God is faithful in man's unfaithfulness.

it's our own journey. the choices we make, will have consequences.
so much things are happening. and i am not talking bout the events.
so much things happened too. and today is another insightful, and a lil shocking day.

but God is my anchor.
Sure and Stedfast.

hecticism

fyp. presentation.

cdop

christmas events
plural. cg and cfs

spiritual succession

fyp. presentation.

cdop

christmas events
plural. cg and cfs

spiritual succession

wahhaa...
since christmas is coming, wahohoho....

:D:D

Ps 18:1-3
I love you, O LORD, my strength.
The LORD is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge,
my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
I call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised,
and I am saved from my enemies.

why?

that question w-h-y.

the question that caused debates aplenty.
or rather the opening of the question.
quarrels abundantly too.
and much more pensiveness in all of us.

the double-u, ech, wai.
used to dig deeper into issues (EIC module applied! :D).
used to manipulate conversations.

used by conscience to question why am i even asking why?
the 'why am i...." or even 'why should i or should i not?'

WHY doesnt always reveal why we want to find out why.
why is why so.. why-ie? (huh?)

Why questions why i chose these decisions, feelings, plans, and decisions-to-be, feelings-to-be.

why did i even type this whole thing?

ok, im beginning to sound like a 3 yr old.....

priorities

decisions i make or struggle with really shows where my priorities and heart lie....

it obviously aint grades. but we're a team. so...

i'm sorry jaz and MR. that i;ve been a liability.

MUFHH 22nov

November 22, 2007

Shallow and Profound

Whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God —1 Corinthians 10:31

Beware of allowing yourself to think that the shallow aspects of life are not ordained by God; they are ordained by Him equally as much as the profound. We sometimes refuse to be shallow, not out of our deep devotion to God but because we wish to impress other people with the fact that we are not shallow. This is a sure sign of spiritual pride. We must be careful, for this is how contempt for others is produced in our lives. And it causes us to be a walking rebuke to other people because they are more shallow than we are. Beware of posing as a profound person— God became a baby.

To be shallow is not a sign of being sinful, nor is shallowness an indication that there is no depth to your life at all— the ocean has a shore. Even the shallow things of life, such as eating and drinking, walking and talking, are ordained by God. These are all things our Lord did. He did them as the Son of God, and He said, "A disciple is not above his teacher . . ." ( Matthew 10:24 ).

We are safeguarded by the shallow things of life. We have to live the surface, commonsense life in a commonsense way. Then when God gives us the deeper things, they are obviously separated from the shallow concerns. Never show the depth of your life to anyone but God. We are so nauseatingly serious, so desperately interested in our own character and reputation, we refuse to behave like Christians in the shallow concerns of life.

Make a determination to take no one seriously except God. You may find that the first person you must be the most critical with, as being the greatest fraud you have ever known, is yourself.

thankful yet utterly useless

thank You, God, for such great team mates... i really feel so useless sia, since they're so zai. oh wells. i will still do my best.

but sure hope they will not take it to heart.
in a way its more than a blessing.. i can spend more time for ministry.

but at the same time, my work mustn't be compromised "cuz im in cf, so u better allow me to slack" which obviously is a warped point of view, though very much appealing.

oh wells. as a student. my testimony has already been shattered.
haiz.

i'm at the other extreme from most others.people strive to get As and good grades. i don't even try.

i really don't know if i am at a position to lead for CDOP.
God, it's You. not me. not us.

CDOP is something really.. well.. must obey one lor.
but with such a call, comes the opposition too.

thankful for cornelyus! he's the CCC chair.. thanks for your full support, and our resonance!

oh wells. CDOP, CHRISTmas 'party'. God. Salvation belongs to You.

screwtape letters

borrowed this book from sch library (like finally)...
at last they had it... i've reserved it since beginning of yr 2 can! hahha.. but it's really interesting how CSLewis brings about thoughts thru satire. which is something i've learnt to appreciate in sec sch...

was just reading this chapter.
here's a letter from Screwtape which really is quite meaningful and apt.
in case you didn't know, Screwtape is this demon uncle who writes to his demon nephew Wormwood giving demonly tips and advice...
so Our Father (Below) = Satan
Enemy = God
Patient = this young christian guy whom Wormwood is supposed to tempt

so here goes!

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‘THE SCREWTAPE LETTERS’ CHAPTER 8

My dear Wormwood,

So you ‘have great hopes that the patient’s religious phase is dying away’, have you? I always though the Training College had gone to pieces since they put old Slubgob at the head of it, and now I’m sure. Has no one ever told you about the law of Undulation?

Humans are amphibians—half spirit and half animal. (The Enemy’s determination to produce such a revolting hybrid was one of the things that determined Our Father to withdraw his support from Him.) As spirits they belong to the eternal world, but as animals they inhabit time. This means that while their spirit can be directed to an eternal object, their bodies, passions, and imaginations are in continual change, for to be in time means to change. Their nearest approach to constancy, therefore, is undulation—the repeated return to a level from which they repeatedly fall back, a series of troughs and peaks. If you had watched your patient carefully you would have seen this undulation in every department of his life—his interest in his work, his affection for his friends, his physical appetites, all go up and down. As long as he lives on earth periods of emotional and bodily richness and liveliness will alternate with periods of numbness and poverty. The dryness and dullness through which your patient is now going are not, as you fondly suppose, your workmanship; they are merely a natural phenomenon which will do us no good unless you make a good use of it.

To decide what the best use of it is, you must ask what use the Enemy wants to make of it, and then do the opposite. Now it may surprise you to learn that in His efforts to get permanent possession of a soul, He relies on the troughs even more that on peaks; some of His special favourites have gone through longer and deeper troughs than anyone else. The reason is this. To use a human is primarily food; our aim is the absorption of its will into ours, the increase of our own area of selfhood at its expense. But the obedience which the Enemy demands of men is quite a different thing. One must face the fact that all the talk about His love for men, and His service being perfect freedom, is not (as one would gladly believe) mere propaganda, but an appalling truth. He really does want to fill the universe with a lot of loathsome little replicas of Himself—creatures whose life, on its miniature scale, will be qualitatively like His own, not because He has absorbed them but because their wills freely conform to His. We want cattle who can finally become food; He wants servants who can finally become sons. We want to suck in, He wants to give out. We are empty and would be filled; He is filled and flows over. Our war aim is a world in which our Father Below has drawn all other beings into himself: the Enemy wants a world full of beings united to Him but still distinct.

And that is where the troughs come in. You must have often wondered why the Enemy does not make more use of His power to be sensibly present to human souls in any degree He chooses and at any moment. But you now see that the Irresistible and the Indisputable are the two weapons which the very nature of His scheme forbids Him to use. Merely to override a human will (as His felt presence in any but the faintest and most mitigated degree would certainly do) would be for Him useless. He cannot ravish. He can only woo. For His ignoble idea is to eat the cake and have it; the creatures are to be one with Him, but yet themselves; merely to cancel them, to assimilate them, will not serve. He is prepared to do a little overriding at the beginning. He will set them off with communications of His presence which, though faint, seem great to them, with emotional sweetness, and easy conquest over temptation. But He never allows this state of affairs to last long. Sooner or later He withdraws, if not in fact, at least from their conscious experience, all those supports and incentives. He leaves the creature to stand up in its own legs—to carry out from the will alone duties which have lost all relish. It is during such trough periods, much more than during the peak periods, that is growing into the sort of creature He wants it to be. Hence the prayers offered in the state of dryness are those which please Him best. We can drag our patients along by continual tempting, because we design them only for the table, and the more their will is interfered with the better. He cannot ‘tempt’ to virtue as we do to vice. He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is please even with their stumbles. Do not be deceived, Wormwood. Our cause is never more in danger than when a human, no longer desiring, but still intending, to do our Enemy’s will, looks round upon the universe from which every trace of Him seems to have vanished, and asks why he has been forsaken, and still obeys.

But of course the troughs afford opportunities to our side also. Next week I will give you some hints on how to exploit them,

Your affectionate uncle

SCREWTAPE
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obviously i'm not the first to type this out... i didn't.. someone else did, and the magical Copy and Paste did the job :P

haha... nor was i the first to find this chapter so meaningful... especially when dry times just left, and seem like its back again...

Thank You God pt2

Thank You God!
http://nicrome.multiply.com/journal/item/93/got_purpose_one my own reply...

Thank You!

and the change is more than evident!
Could it be true? that now so many people are being made ready for God for this yr's CHRISTmas Harvest?

i do see many around me, yours truly included, being renewed, restored, refreshed this season. and they are close close friends to me. sisters in Christ especially!

Jesus is LORD.

baby blues 14oct07

really tickled me when i read this last last sunday!

Thank You God.

can't think of any other title.. :\

thank You God.
for speaking on DOP about mission.

it isn't by chance that the almost a month missed of my devotional bk, My Utmost For His Highest, then i resumed last thurs, to read about mission. and Fri and Saturday about Missionary.

It's Mission. in the singular, i learnt. Cuz it's God's Mission, and we are doing it with Him.

I guess i never really been convicted so much about Mission and Evangelism.
God, Thank You for such a season in my life.
The dry periods for much of this year only serves to make this time sweeter.

God, it really is a blessing to see blessing. esp in cf... from what it was 2 yrs back and beyond then...

i recently heard, how at that time, 4-5 yrs back? CF(eng) in SP shrunk to this one girl (think her name's See Kar) who chose to remain and pray... then 5 people came (this was Chin Sing's batch), then YanSing's batch then mine.. and God has really grown us from strength to strength in these years! especially so recently...

it's a blessing to be a blessing, and to see blessing.
cuz it all points to His faithfulness, and divine placement of each and everyone where ever we were/are.

just want to share this cuz, i never thought i will actually to see such amazing things happen in my time, and in front of our 'eyes'...
it's really a blessing, cuz we usually hear abt it only! ;)


the lovely thing about student ministries, is that, there is little or no worry about whether it will survive or whether the flame will be passed on or not, cuz we know that God will really be the one who does that work... spcf has been there for almost 50 years already.. 48 actually... technically shd have closed down a nong nong time ago lor... so the fact that we are still here, cfers, is already a testimony to His faithfulness...

sound super christian lingo hor, this post... like as if it's some pre-recorded, templated post.
heh... like i said before... when cliches become truth personally hor, it is true personally .

oh wells... God, thanks for putting me in this period. Empower me to give the same praise, same worship, when things arent well.

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oh wells.....
gift of friendship.

two in particular recently... which is an answered prayer. singular again. cuz i didn't expect two.

God, thank You. and thank You again.

it really is such a pity i met these two kindred spirits like in my last sem in poly! gahh... and one could have come to cf at an earlier time, if not for my own forgetfulness!!

but still you two are gifts from God. i'm sure our friendships are too...

Bro, thanks for hearing Him, and obeying. Thanks for walking this short journey together.
Sis, you too. Thanks for hearing His heart, and sharing how He has impressed so much things in your heart, and how you long to see Him work in campus.

thanks!
God, Thanks.

must there be walls and layers? must there be soft ones and hard ones? =D i treasure the friendship. i rly hope that the end pt isn't the end pt."keep hitting the wall" "aren't you afraid the person will hit the wall too many times, but end up giving up cuz kena concussed and hurt from all that hitting?"

parny

hahaha... though of course some, i don't get it...

ian... i'm sure you'll love this...

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HUMOR FOR LEXOPHILES
(LOVERS OF WORDS):


I wondered why the baseball was
getting bigger. Then it hit me.

Police were called to a day care
where a three-year-old was
resisting a rest.

Did you hear about the guy whose
whole left side was cut off? He's
all right now.

The roundest knight at King Arthur's
round table was Sir Cumference.

The butcher backed up into the
meat grinder and got a little behind
in his work.

To write with a broken
pencil is pointless.

When fish are in schools they
sometimes take debate.

The short fortune teller who escaped
from prison was a small medium at large.

A thief who stole a calendar
got twelve months.

A thief fell and broke his leg in wet
cement. He became a hardened criminal.

Thieves who steal corn from a garden
could be charged with stalking.

We'll never run out of math teachers
because they always multiply.

When the smog lifts in
Los Angeles, U.C.L.A.

The math professor went crazy with
the blackboard. He did a number on it.

The professor discovered that her
theory of earthquakes was
on shaky ground.

The dead batteries were given
out free of charge.

If you take a laptop computer for
a run you could jog your memory.

A dentist and a manicurist fought
tooth and nail.

A bicycle can't stand alone;
it is two tired.

A will is a dead giveaway.

Time flies like an arrow; fruit
flies like a banana.

A backward poet writes inverse.

In a democracy it's your vote that
counts; in feudalism, it's your
Count that votes.

A chicken crossing the road:
poultry in motion.

If you don't pay your exorcist
you can get repossessed.

With her marriage she got a
new name and a dress.

Show me a piano falling down a mine
shaft and I'll show you A-flat miner.

When a clock is hungry
it goes back four seconds.

The guy who fell onto an upholstery
machine was fully recovered.

A grenade fell onto a kitchen floor
in France, resulted in Linoleum
Blownapart.

You are stuck with your debt
if you can't budge it.

Local Area Network in Australia:
The LAN down under.

He broke into song because he
couldn't find the key.

A calendar's days are numbered.

A boiled egg is hard to beat.

He had a photographic memory
which was never developed.

A plateau is a high form of flattery.

Those who get too big for their
britches will be exposed in the end.

When you've seen one shopping
center you've seen a mall.

If you jump off a Paris bridge,
you are in Seine.

When she saw her first strands
of gray hair, she thought she'd dye.

Bakers trade bread recipes
on a knead to know basis.

Santa's helpers are
subordinate clauses.

Acupuncture: a jab well done.

A lot of money is tainted:
'Taint yours, and 'taint mine.

"got purpose one"

really leh. everything, everywhere hor, got purpose one...

i seem to be repeating that quite so often this week.
and aptly so i guess.

really such a blessed week! thank You God.
for each and every new CFer! they are really Your answered prayers to us.. and they are each gifts!
Thank You! for Josh Chui, Ronald, Emily (my junior!!!), Shu Fen and Yee Suan!
If you guys somehow happen to read this, the fact you came.. is got purpose one!

And, i'm pretty thankful, that God granted Addi and I such great resonance! God... it isn't that we intend to pray, or our prayers... I'm sure it is You who will be in each prayer meeting / stE / prayer walk. God, You are the awesome, amazing God.
... is go purpose one!

God... thank You, too for the opportunity. it has been three years.KY is in Your hands, God. and even SF, DN, FZ, KM. God, You hear my heart, Lord. i long to see what You have in store for these bros.

And even this morning to church. we were fetched to church by this christian cabby...
and his testimony is such a powerful, well, testimony to Him.
This cabby, though not eloquent in speech, is the kind of Christian man... he was once a hairstylist, lived pretty much quite a lifestyle which was, well, 'cool'. smoking playboy kinda thing... but it wrecked him badly. and somehow, he lost that job. so.. he began searching. for a job. But also for something or someOne more....
He was at such a down point in his life that he sorta gave a 'challenge' to whoever it was on top... he just knew there was this big boss up there, just someone. could it be Buddha? Jesus? etc. He just knew there was this God, supreme being out there...
and so he began to say, whatever, however a job he gets, the first person to help him, he will believe in what god that person believes in.
and so happens, as he kept looking, there was an application for a storeman job. At a church.
So he spent the whole morning and afternoon calling the number. But no answer. Just beeps.
He was really pissed off, and he began to be desperate, and kept saying to himself regarding the "believe whoever comes first" theory...
and he dialled again. there finally was an answer. and it wasn't the wrong number either! ;P
The person who answered was the church secretary. And she realised that she put down the fax no. on the ad. And this guy got the right number... amazing hor?
To cut the story short, one yr into this job, but still not a christian, he just threw his cigarettes away. Without even knowing it consciously. Three years into the job, he accepted Him. and cleared out his idols.

and it was so, like we got this cabby, two weeks into this new job, and he was sharing and quoting verses! and ultimately how Christ is so much his joy and love. He being a cabby, is got purpose one... he say he 'kar kar' share to all his passengers. nthn to lose anyway. and his sharing really touched us on the ride to church.

This is how a christian looks like man.
Really puts me to shame. And more often than not, we expect christians to be the upper middle class people spouting all the God-jargon and laughing with such sophisticated laughter at our upper class calibre and status. Or even forming committees to find out how to evangelise and go for talks and courses on how to reach the world. Not forgetting the note-taking, and the cynical criticism that follows each meeting. And, of course, speaking in good english, having proper jobs, dressing properly and to fit in, you must fit in to us.

Of course, such a paragraph is naiively superficial and sees such exteriors. but it was really a reminder for me. That wherever we are, it really is to seize each oppurtunity, and know.. is got purpose one.

But there are times (like now), where when we really can't understand, really don’t see His plan or trace His hand, must really... trust his heart.
There has to be a purpose at such times. When it's absolutlely bewildering. I trust You, God. I trust that You take care of this... dear friend of mine.

got purpose one.

so what is that purpose?

He alone is faithful and true.
He reigns... with wisdom, power & might.
When the darkness closes in
I will still say,

Blessed Be Your Name.
Our God is the Awesome God.

paradox

Got this from someone's multiply ;)

who i guess got it from an email...


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The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgement, more experts, yet more problems, and more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch too much T.V, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information to produce more copies then ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small charater, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses but broken homes. Theses are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one-night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or just hit delete.

Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person will soon grow up and leave your side. Remember, to say "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside you. And always remember, life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breaths away.
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a new dawning

What will You do God?

it's getting exciting to see what God has in store in polyCFs...

But, do we choose to seek His works?
rather than Him?

welcome! Ronald, Josh Chui, Shu Fen(and definitely not THAT Shu Fen), Emily and Yee Suan
God...
thank You Lord...

they are all a gift each.

Let's continue to love one another ya? even tho it may be hard, esp newcomers, and even current ones that we have to sit down... cant stand it.
really one-anothering one another leh...
try our best ya, bros and sisters!
don't discourage yourselves from things like CCA drives, or even StE ya? cuz, i know you can do it... being spontaneous and happening in most groups, but saying that cca drive is hard, cuz must talk to ppl?
can one la...

i realised that spcf's and npcf's place in well, sp and np, are really a mandate for us to keep. and i guess, that if we don't keep our posts in sp, np, and even tp, properly, it isn't good stewardship of the positions He gave us in the poly campuses...

signing off...
blogger's block lah...
:D

a new dawning

What will You do God?

it's getting exciting to see what God has in store in polyCFs...

But, do we choose to seek His works?
rather than Him?

God...
thank You Lord...

Let's continue to love one another ya? even tho it may be hard, esp newcomers, and even current ones that we have to sit down... cant stand it.
really one-anothering one another leh...
try our best ya, bros and sisters!
don't discourage yourselves from things like CCA drives, or even StE ya? cuz, i know you can do it... being spontaneous and happening in most groups, but saying that cca drive is hard, cuz must talk to ppl?
can one la...

signing off...
blogger's block lah...
:D

a new dawning

What will You do God?

it's getting exciting to see what God has in store in polyCFs...

But, do we choose to seek His works?
rather than Him?

God...
thank You Lord...

Let's continue to love one another ya?
really one-anothering one another leh...
try our best ya, bros and sisters!
don't discourage yourselves from things like CCA drives, or even StE ya? cuz, i know you can do it... being spontaneous and happening in most groups, but saying that cca drive is hard, cuz must talk to ppl?
can one la...

signing off...
blogger's block lah...
:D

The Line Thins

Last pre-sem thoughts

it's one of those semester's-coming-and-must-work-harder-next-sem mood. nothing bad about it, but... the past 5 sems.....

i've not been a good student lor.. :D

and i guess, this anticipation and whatnot, would probably be my last. At least in poly.
but chances are, it will probably be my last as a full time student. Uni education??? What uni education? :P oops... hahha
unless, of course, some random day pops out and i go NUS to study my stuff or crash some lectures! which..... isn't so far a reality actually... ;P since NUS isn't exactly very far from SP, and having close friends in NUS helps too! HAHA!!

anyways..... i guess uni education isn't where i'm headed.
but i know God has a plan for me!

last semester.
has come.
hasn't it?
has it not?
it has?
huh?
what's a semester?
the pregnant kind?

oops :D:D

YES! FINALLY!
yes... finnaaalllyyy...
Oh NO! SO FAST!
uh oh. so fast.

it's getting bitter sweet... it should have been only relief, and "it's finally over" feeling... but.. i guess, i will miss my poly days... mostly cuz God really has moulded me alot alot these three years.
and alot of it was thru CF...

too many words to say i guess...

it's the last semester.
will i make the same old mistakes? chances are... yes...

doing your best, and God will do the rest!
so automatic hor... know how to say, but.... oh wells....

but i guess, i will look back at my poly life, and see how much God was present throughout...

thank You.
thank you people, cfers esp... like mel... really leh, like u said, think only the few of us have been there all along throughout...
so thankful...

so... let's just see what He will do these few months...
these few significant months.

G3... should i? or rather will i? "thinking about it" too much sometimes lessens faith...

Last pre-sem thoughts

it's one of those semester's-coming-and-must-work-harder-next-sem mood. nothing bad about it, but... the past 5 sems.....

i've not been a good student lor.. :D

and i guess, this anticipation and whatnot, would probably be my last. At least in poly.
but chances are, it will probably be my last as a full time student. Uni education??? What uni education? :P oops... hahha
unless, of course, some random day pops out and i go NUS to study my stuff or crash some lectures! which..... isn't so far a reality actually... ;P since NUS isn't exactly very far from SP, and having close friends in NUS helps too! HAHA!!

anyways..... i guess uni education isn't where i'm headed.
but i know God has a plan for me!

last semester.
has come.
hasn't it?
has it not?
it has?
huh?
what's a semester?
the pregnant kind?

oops :D:D

YES! FINALLY!
yes... finnaaalllyyy...
Oh NO! SO FAST!
uh oh. so fast.

it's getting bitter sweet... it should have been only relief, and "it's finally over" feeling... but.. i guess, i will miss my poly days... mostly cuz God really has moulded me alot alot these three years.
and alot of it was thru CF...

too many words to say i guess...

it's the last semester.
will i make the same old mistakes? chances are... yes...

doing your best, and God will do the rest!
so automatic hor... know how to say, but.... oh wells....

but i guess, i will look back at my poly life, and see how much God was present throughout...

thank You.
thank you people, cfers esp... like mel... really leh, like u said, think only the few of us have been there all along throughout...
so thankful...

so... let's just see what He will do these few months...
these few significant months.

off to double camp!

off to my back-to-back camp week ;)

at NP...

then off to SP's LTC... which is called Leaders' of Tomorrow Camp. so we are leaders only tomorrow. and tomorrow's tomorrow. and tomorrow's tomorrow's tomorrow. :D

good thing it's on a cruise...

and at Pulau Redang...

insert monotone woohoo :D

off to double camp!

another sem....

....to be thankful to my God!

though i have become an even lousier student.
i must stop taking His grace for granted.


another sem ends... which means... 1 more to go.

thank You, for placing me in SP. in CF. in CG.
Thank You God.

learning hokkien

'this'-unity of the Church.....

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/19692094/?GT1=10150

oh wells...

What is real?

what is real?
what does being real take?

what is real, really?

Listening absence.

MUFHU

my utmost for His highest la..

im sure many people are doing this devo too....

but im pretty thankful i got this bk, given to me....
almost everyday it sorta speaks to me pretty relevantly... mostly to how we serve Him, and ministry (or ministries for some of us)....

yesterday's and today's are especially true and relevant for me at this point of time.

in summary, don't worship your work to God, and don't desire 'spiritual success'. sucess defined as "success measured by, and patterned after, the form set by this religious age in which we now live". like how many converts u got lah, how tight an event turned out, how many ppl raise hands during rally, etc....

great reminder.

just wondering hor, why..........

we had CCA drive the past 3 days....

so cf being cf, we gave out "bookmarks" which served as gospel tracts.....

and seeing all the reactions by different people was pretty interesting...
quite a number of people, seeing our bright yellow "Polytechnic Christian Fellowship" banner, just siamed......

so as we gave out there were mostly 3 responses:
~ pause to see what's it all about, then ask "ehh, what club is this har?"
~ just take and go...
~ just never take and go...

so it was interesting when there was this guy, who took it, then gave it back...."sorry, i am antiChrist. :) "

which made me wonder leh....
why ah... got such term called 'antiChrist', but no such terms like 'antiBuddha', 'antiMohammad', 'antiSaibaba', or even 'anti-atheism' :D

The Truth is jarring. makes peoples' ears ache.

Post-attachment and Pre-year3 thoughts

The past few weeks was attachment. The next few months will be Year 3. My final (i hope) year in poly.

i guess the lessons i learnt (thru the hard way) will make me view life, and even myself a wee bit differently...

HE has really been such a faithful God. i guess my 7wks of attachment, He has really been there. so so so so thankful to a so so so so Cool God who's definitely not soso.

First off, a pretty good company. A little higher pay than my classmates.

second, little did i expect them to offer a FYP (final yr proj)! so... my fyp is secured earlier than the others! and to think i was fretting who should i approach to be my teammates... since i'm far from close with my classmates.

i guess it was these blessings that somehow motivated me throughout the few weeks.... cuz it IS true.... somehow, studying life is a lil more enjoyable than work life.

not that the job sucks... it was really good actually. the job scope fitted me! lab work and office work combined. i think i would have died-ed if it was office work. but, somehow, studying life has less stress on the mind and body. ok.. maybe not so much less stress, but a different type.

i guess having to work especially when it is such a small environment, and everyone's eyes are on you and how you do your work, gives me the nerves...... Gave me the nerves rather.

and i am so not used to being on my toes all the time. the contrary rather.. not that i do handstand all the time la :P maybe must go take up ballet... then will really be on my toes all the time :D NAH! i can not imagine myself doing ballet.



oh wells, it just wasnt a good feeling that my work revealed all my chao kuan. or rather, it was more obvious bah... and having to deal with (extremely, sometimes too extreme) high expectations....

i think i crumbled.

i guess it all revealed how flawed i am, how incompetent i really am. ....
oh wells.

time to work on each of them.


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and here comes my final poly year. Poly life is just so fast. (ok at this station in life for me la... later comes NS life, work life, retirement life etc....) but, yea lo.. it does feel like time is accelerated in this 3+ years.

so for new poly (or JC or ITE or private schs) students, make your poly life count. REALLY. make full use of every opportunity you have in your post-secondary life. esp when it comes to sharing His good news! You really won't have much time though graduation seems far! it ain't. and campus is the time where there will be more seekers in your sphere of friends. (ok thats just for me...)

i guess... starting and ending is easy. (though whether it is started or finished well is another thing :P )

and here i am in the first week of sch forgetting that there's no lesson today, simply cuz its the first week :P

and having all these ideas and hopes.
and saying things like "must make full use and opportunity of this year" since it IS my last opportunity to do anything.

but i know that darn tendency of mine to get distracted along the way.

oh wells. i hope this year wd be fruitful. I'm pretty sure it will be.
only if i am willing to allow Him to do so.
(then skarly later i go home, i see my fridge filled with nothing but fruits :D durian-apple-orange-mangosteen-pongpong-chilli-brinjal milkshake anyone? O.O.P.S )

but i really do hope that this year to see what and how he will change me. and even cf.
there HAS to be a purpose for putting us in wadeva circumstance or positions....

i guess many people + myself does feel anticipative (eh nic..got such word meh?) of what this year holds.

i am a Christian.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting, "I'm clean living'."
I'm whispering, "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

got this from someone's blog, who got it from an email.

probably will be using multiply more now.
www.nicrome.multiply.com

tho, i doubt i will update as often now... wasnt often in the first place.
so less often of lesser often, means not often. which is not really frequently, and not hourly either. by the minute? nah.. later kena arrested for overblogging and a nuisance on the web community.. just send virus to all u ppl, and juz write some politically challenging, and racist thing here..

and of course download stuff by the terabytes, and make sure i get noticed by the govt.


ok.


what did i just type???
don't get it?
neither do i leh :P:P

short-circuited.

tactful. not yet there. :(

tactfulness.

say right things.
at right time.

if not, silence really is golden....

i am sorry.

we all are on a journey....
tho of course i made a fool of myself, and felt kinda stupid after that, but....
it's a journey for meself....

Prov 17:27-28
A man of knowledge uses words with restraint,
and a man of understanding is even-tempered.

Even a fool is thought wise if he keeps silent,
and discerning if he holds his tongue.

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was thinking on Ps 127 this wk.
Unless He.
We. In Vain.

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thankfulness...
i guess it is another journey for all of us...

on my previous post... yea i am thankful for my attachment AKA itp.

but i wonder, was it because it was easy to do so? a convenient thing, cuz it's all rosy and a good start?

do i forget that ending well is also important... and that i seldom do?

it was easy for me, cuz it was convenient i guess...

but will i CHOOSE to serve thankfully when it doesnt seem to be thankful-able? when things just seem to be on a routine, which isn't really fruitful, and nearly directionless? when it seems that there will not be anything done?

i guess, this thought process will bring me no where.

i shall choose to. but will i?

ranting bout it on and on neither helps to, as it leads to a complaining heart.. which will make us look and focus on the wrong things... cuz our aperture ain't big enough... and maybe also our shutter speed not fast enough to capture everything.

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this isn't a sad post, really. im not emotional now.. much the contrary rather... :D it's just the reflections of my week...

hmm... i guess reflections (or convictions frm Him) will just remain that, if we choose not to do anything bout our own drawbacks.

cuz we're still all on this journey.

"it's a nong nong journey"

:D

thankful

i am thankful.

that i was placed at a pretty good attachment company.
though it's far from my home.

but it's pretty good..

was complaining when i first saw how much i was gonna be paid (a few months back) but then i realised i got more than most of my classmates...
(though of course there's that nagging thought that the biz sch people get much higher! heh, are bankers and accountants rly more skill-ded than chemists??? ;P HAHAHA jk! )
so.. yea, i AM very thankful! to Him of course...

colleagues all friendly ppl (there're only 4...)
fun attachment partner... who's a fellow believer too!
interesting job scope, rather than sai kang like filing etc. thankful for that.... though of course, it gets stressful as my boss/supt briefs us on our projects.

high expectations which i doubt i can exceed and excel.
i never did, of any expectations thrust on me.
never excelled.


back to the topic of my allowance... i wonder why sometimes i tend to complain for the sake (not sahkae :D ) of it.
some of us will of course say it's therapeutic.

it's therapeutic to complain and whine and kp and kp and complain and whine.
with of course very polite and civilised language.
VERY.

some say it's therapeutic because it allows us to thrash it out and vent it out...

is it really?

or do we just want to?
we choose to actually.

oh wells, i think thankfulness is a better therapy!

give thanks in a complaining society.
and while we're at it, why not give thanks for the complaining society you're in...

it's true leh!
(as if we didn't know that)

but we choose not to.

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ps im also thankful for last week.

quite eventful cny wk.
went ubin on thurs and had a potluck on fri....

ubin becuz God rly answered our prayers and provided the perfect weather for the 6 of us.
potluck cuz of the great FOOD! yum :D:D:D


click on the words to check out the fotos! :D

transitions

they always say that our lives' transitions are little tests of faith.

and it seems like almost everyone i know now is going through some sort of transition in church.
the webs now have their wgs streamlined and re-shuffled. transition
the people closer to me in church are those in my age-group (who're 19-20) are now moving from web to rays. transitions
and for others, IDT. transitions
new age group, new cell groups, new timings, new clashes, new experience, new prorities???

and i wonder if like the many before, we'll fall away at such a time.
and i am really concerned for certain bros and sisters of mine who may have been strong once, but now because of all these... .....
and for myself too.
what if i one day go away?
what if one day i choose to give up this marathon?
what if one day i just choose to take it easy?

i realised that circumstances don't cause us to fall away, or sin for that matter.
but we choose to. it is a deliberate and we will like to think of it as a rational bo pian circumstancial choice we have made well.
we choose to fall away.
we choose to sin.
and it's a choice people will surely say "eeyur of course don't want lah". but we know the outcomes..........

quote of day : "If circumstances find us in God, we'll find God in our circumstances"

an understatement of The Love of God

i like songs laden with rich lyrics.
i guess it really is an understatement...

The love of God is greater far
Than tongue or pen can ever tell
It goes
beyond the highest star
And reaches to the lowest hell
The guilty pair,
bowed down with care
God gave His Son to win
His erring child He
reconciled
And pardoned from his sin

Could we with ink the ocean fil
And were the skies of parchment made
Were every stalk on earth a quill
And every man a scribe by trade

To write the love of God above
Would drain the ocean dry
Nor could the scroll contain the whol
Though stretched from sky to sky

Hallelujah (3x)

O love of
God, how rich and pure!
How measureless and strong!
It shall forevermore
endure
The saints' and angels' song

song here in my multiply...

hokkien bond

To keep Your lovely face
Ever before my eyes
This is my prayer
Make it my strong desire
That in my secret heart
No other love competes
No rival throne survives
And I serve only You.

what if....

...i have to extend my polytechnic life by around 6 months?
because of my discipline.
rather... the lackof.

oh wells.

song in my mind... :

"All things work for our good.
Though sometimes we don’t see how they could.
Struggles that break our hearts in two
Sometimes blind us to the truth.
Our Father knows what best for us he ways are not our own. ...
.
.
.
He’s see the master plan and He hold our future in His hand.
So don’t live as those who have no hope, for our hope is found in Him.
We see the present clearly, but he see the first and the last
And like a tapestry He’s weaving you and me to someday be just like Him.
.
.
.
trust His heart."


am i prepared to face the consequence?
6months/ a semester of time.
isn't small.

purpose for everything lah.......... trust lor.

little by little by....

change.

little by little by..
step at a time!
it's better than having it, one shot a time..
little by little by,
i want to say hi(?!)
come into my life and clear it all up.


[heh... now that song (the original one) is stuck in my head :P ]

a disappointing sem

i guess, it was just entropy.
a lazy, slothful, ill-disciplined streak since young that turned into a lifestyle. and it's no one's fault but mine.

tho of course, the tendency is that i tend to grumble and blame my environment, upbringing etc etc etc... but i guess.. at the far back end of our minds.. we can complain all we want, but that rational logical part that's still left, says "is it? really?? u sure?"

gah...
i'm so disappointed. but. i chose not to do anything bout it.

in fact it got worst as the sem proceeded.
grades got worse. studying durations got shorter. stewardships of time and money got worse.

and if this goes on, it will only get worse.

and that's an understatement i suppose...

and the ironic thing is that, i started off this sem reading proverbs. where there are many proverbs about sloths and laziness and ill-discipline and nuahness.

and i took it as a warning.
but.

oh wells.

and right now as the sem closes before the exams... i've pissed my pract teammates off cuz of my own incompetencies, and ill-discipline.

what a great testimony. esp when ppl know i am a so-called 'active christian'. and esp when ppl know what my ministry (or for them, my cca) in sch is rite now.

esp this esp that.

and it brings it a few steps back.
it brings more potholes for people to poke and discredit our God. it gives them something to say against.

oh wells. if it's like that now.. i wonder how it will be when i work.




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just a random thing:

sacrifices to be made.
that's when you really question yourself. are you willing to sacrifice time at a weird time for someone you don't really know yet.
we ask for friends who will be there for us... i guess i'm far far far from that friend. i am willing. but there are buts.


oh wells. a world where we are all fishmongers. or fishermen's friend for that matter.

we sell fish.

ironic isn't it? we sell fish, but we're all called to be fishers of men.

hmm.
for the really blur: sell fish = selfish

cf. thanksgiving. 06

year 2 has come and is coming to an end real soon. yea its weird.
the year ends when the year starts.

the academic year lah.

which means that dreaded, dreary cycle of exams and mugging, and etcetera.

and it also means, i will be senior. i will be year 3 in a few months time. and it means the current year 3s are graduating
duh right?? :P

had our last cf of yr06/07 just hours ago...
and it's the last cf of two dear sisters. yan sing and yufang...

haha.. guess we will all miss them... oh wells. so glad to have known you gals.

and of course suan-ing you all ;P hahhaa.. hey.. i'm not the most guilty right? :D:D:D:D

ah wells.
the 2 of you! if you ever read this... thanks for the memories of 2006.
indeed our God has been so good this... erm, last year (i must update myself mannn!!!)

through out 06, from the beginning, God has been just so good, so faithful, as He has always been and will be... so so amazing...
i'm just so glad i'm part of all these, and His work.

just to mention a few:

let's start from the beginning of acad yr 06/07...
basically the whole PCF had so few people (around 10 people from 3 language ministries combined) before the year started.
but.. in my whole time in SP, i never realised it could have been one of the more happening cf times...

we prayed. and God answered. He's cool i tell you. (though it may sound that i'm some holey moley waste canal. cant be bothered with what people think really.)
among the many was that, we prayed for musicians, at least 1, and we got 4.
and we prayed for people who wants to really serve Him through CF, and be called and committed. and we got an overly-enthu guy. ;P hahhahahha...

there was enrolment and cca booth. and we got soo many names. didn't do much.
but i guess it was an encouragement to us. even NPCF. they had 3 members left. and now God has answered their prayers too!

but i guess what was the whole highlight of the beginning of the year, was our welcome tea. sooo many people came (of course not many stayed on, but still....) it was truly amazing, since before that the 3subministries never really did interact that much. but 06 changed that... we had a camp.

that camp.. whoa... so much provisions. from basic things, to even the budget.
from a deficit to a surplus leh!!!

oh wells.. many more...

hmm don't we all have stories to share about His faithfulness even in our own lives and ministries? but more often than not, when we plan stuff, we worry like siao trying to see if it will work out, or if even WE can or not. and we totally forget all His blessings.and we go thru lives worrying, and living without even a consideration that He can do it again.

we just forget.

anyways.. just wanted to blog and share this only cuz... it's the last cf day for 06/07.

07/08 would mean something different i guess. and i guess more of His goodness. His faithfulness, in our faithlessness.

yea as i was saying, those 2 sisters... thanks for everything!
oh wells. typing a post here would actually do injustice to what i have to say to you gals... so.. haha.. u readers will just know i am quite thankful.

(actually the real reason is that i am tired and i dowan to type so much anymore :P:P hahhahahhaha oops ;D )

oh wells.

07/08.

Lord.. You will show Yourself so true once again i'm sure. And You will do something in-us-through-us to the campus.
I know You will Lord.



hey those people waiting for Os results, intending to go poly or u got posted to poly after ur Os results..
and yea, i am talking to you people like Jan, Erika, Denis, Nicole Ding, you all lah...

do consider joining us on this journey, whichever poly u go.
consider only lah, wont push you to join us, cuz ultimately (i believe) it's He who calls us to whereever He wants us to be in, and to serve.



haha.. anyways. my mind is getting fizzed.
chain of thoughts getting random.


i'm thankful.
=)

pride

more of Him.

Seek His Kingdom first.

obey.



that's all i wanna say... Once again... or rather.. this time.. really cannot be mistaken. the events, the sermons, the exhortations, and my own reflections and struggles. even the people around me day after day.

all on pride.

on a different aspect of it though, for me... an aspect of pride i never really took seriously.

still trying to articulate it in my mind what it is actually. wellsss.

pride seems like it has the dubious honour of being that sin that's so insidious, you won't even know u are sinning.

oh wells.



a gd closure to certain qns in my mind in today's senior web meeting. and another message from Him to me.

guarding my heart...

from heart attack? haha scared kena deathnote ah.. :P hahah jk.(hor zeph?)

from pride.

fri's dawn prayer msg, and sun's msg were both timely.
though timely in a different sense.


fri:

of comparison.
my security isn't on the right place at times.
why do i even place so much emphasis on friendship?

only God put things right. He is indeed our security.
a very fine security. and that's an understatement! :D


sun:

guard hearts.
against fear and pride.

when things go well and/or better than you expected.
i sense pride wanting to visit me bigg time this year. this academic year 07/08.
and it may be in that ministry i am serving at.
i guess sunday was a timely warning. a warning before everything starts.
and if i am called and chosen, i suppose.. these are the exact two issues i would face.
fear. pride.


GOD, be God and Lord.



oh wells. it's at the beginning of the year. before it all starts.

nic of the future... i wonder what you'll (me lah) be thankful for when everything's over. will you (i) fall to myself? my own pride?

position does not allow us to be proud.
but i suppose, if i do get called and get chosen, it will be a burden. spiritual burden, to pray for it. and for right decisions.

i'd rather not actually, lest it becomes all about me.
my decisions, my this my that.
and i will feel gd bout it only cuz that in worldly terms, it looks gd.
something to do with furniture lah. stools or tables or maybe even chairs... :P:P:P :D hahaha... anyways.

oh wells, i shall wait till all is finalised. again, lest i get too carried away like it's already happened.
if i get excited about it, i am only opening the door to pride, and his cousins and relatives, and siblings to have lunch (not tea =D ) with me.

new lessons to be learnt this year i guess!
it will never end man.
and maybe some revisions on past lessons!! hahaa...

heh, life's really like school.
School of Rose Growing maybe??

beautiful times of roses, and thorny times of, erm, thorns? ;P but our 'gardener' is Him!

oh wells.
hey my fellow classmates!

12th day of christmas

heh.. since nic (nicole ang) pointed out that today is the 12th day of christmas.. here's a classic joke. hahhaa....

My dearest darling Edward, Dec 25

What a wonderful surprise has just greeted me! That sweet
partridge, in that lovely little pear-tree; what an
enchanting, romantic, poetic present! Bless you, and thank
you.

Your deeply loving Emily.




Beloved Edward, Dec 26

The two turtle-doves arrived this morning, and are cooing
away in the pear-tree as I write. I'm so touched and
grateful!
With undying love, as always, Emily.




My darling Edward, Dec 27

You do think of the most original presents! Who ever thought
of sending anybody three French hens? Do they really come all
the way from France? It's a pity we have no chicken coops,
but I expect we'll find some. Anyway, thank you so much;
they're lovely.
Your devoted Emily.




Dearest Edward, Dec 28
What a surprise! Four calling birds arrived this morning.
They are very sweet, even if they do call rather loudly -
they make telephoning almost impossible - but I expect
they'll calm down when they get used to their new home.
Anyway, I'm very grateful, of course I am.
Love from Emily.




Dearest Edward, Dec 29
The mailman has just delivered five most beautiful gold
rings, one for each finger, and all fitting perfectly! A
really lovely present! Lovelier, in a way, than birds, which
do take rather a lot of looking after. The four that arrived
yesterday are still making a terrible row, and I'm afraid
none of us got much sleep last night. Mother says she wants
to use the rings to "wring" their necks. Mother has such a
sense of humor. This time she's only joking, I think, but I
do know what she means. Still, I love the rings.
Bless you, Emily.




Dear Edward, Dec 30
Whatever I expected to find when I opened the front door
this morning, it certainly wasn't six socking great geese
laying eggs all over the porch. Frankly, I rather hoped that
you had stopped sending me birds. We have no room for them,
and they've already ruined the croquet lawn. I know you meant
well, but let's call a halt, shall we?
Love, Emily.




Edward, Dec 31
I thought I said NO MORE BIRDS. This morning I woke up to
find no more than seven swans, all trying to get into our
tiny goldfish pond. I'd rather not think what's happened to
the goldfish. The whole house seems to be full of birds, to
say nothing of what they leave behind them, so please,
please, stop! Your Emily.




Jan 1
Frankly, I prefer the birds. What am I to do with eight
milkmaids? And their cows! Is this some kind of a joke? If
so, I'm afraid I don't find it very amusing.
Emily.




Look here, Edward, Jan 2
This has gone far enough. You say you're sending me nine
ladies dancing. All I can say is, judging from the way they
dance, they're certainly not ladies. The village just isn't
accustomed to seeing a regiment of shameless viragos, with
nothing on but their lipstick, cavorting round the green, and
it's Mother and I who get the blame. If you value our
friendship, which I do (less and less), kindly stop this
ridiculous behavior at once!
Emily.




Jan 3
As I write this letter, ten disgusting old men are prancing
up and down all over what used to be the garden, before the
geese and the swans and the cows got at it. And several of
them, I have just noticed, are taking inexcusable liberties
with the milkmaids. Meanwhile the neighbors are trying to
have us evicted. I shall never speak to you again.
Emily.





Jan 4
This is the last straw! You know I detest bagpipes! The
place has now become something between a menagerie and a
madhouse, and a man from the council has just declared it
unfit for habitation. At least Mother has been spared this
last outrage; they took her away yesterday afternoon in an
ambulance. I hope you're satisfied.




Jan 5
Sir,
Our client, Miss Emily Wilbraham, instructs me to inform you
that with the arrival on her premises at 7:30 this morning of
the entire percussion section of the Boston Symphony
Orchestra, and several of their friends, she has no course
left open to her but to seek an injunction to prevent you
importuning her further. I am making arrangements for the
return of much assorted livestock.
I am, Sir, yours faithfully,
G. Creep Attorney at law.

:D