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onemonth.
tenthmonth.
firstmonth.
twentythreemonthstogo.

the flow of time just passes thru like that.

quite alot of things to be thankful for this past month.

life is just BBEEAUTIFFULL! (internal joke :D )

and this week has been a divine week too...
quite interesting how God lets u have a pda opportunity...

all i can do is to be thankful.

just a quote frm one of kel's message...
"dont be discouraged. sometimes we just couldn't see the small things that might have great impact in life later.."

quite profound leh, kel!

title lor..

been quite a week!

final-est paper.
cycled from ecp to changi.
IDMC.
had time with the Skyline Youth Leaders and Matt.
anniv service.
anniv dinner.

overloaded sia...

being so away online has kinda made me realise i never really needed online-ness. prefer the real world still.

it's been a blessed week. serving, learning, absorbing...
pretty much, pretty intense.

not really keen on blogging them, though blogworthy.
i prefer to just share them with ppl closer.

maybe, its the season of time where i just dont wanna disclose my life here. what's the point anyways?

why am i blogging now? cuz im waiting for some stuff to be uploaded, and needed to rant.

still thankful week

Truly thankful for this past one week beginning last sunday 27jul08.
it was a week fraught with ups and alot of downs.
emo week.

still thankful.

God, You'll be there.
God thank You.

quite alot of things to be thankful in spite of the things which are harder to give thanks...
dawn prayer on thurs, rays slot on fri..

tear down these idols Lord.

i pray that it will be a decision that i wont regret. wont regret cuz You brought it thru.
teach Your love.

hurts and whatnot.

You are faithful.

ppl hurt one another cuz mainly, we're inherently unright.

anddd
i'm off to EARC 2008! off to the East... Jepuun. ;)

Blessing of Weakness II

Weakness is only a blessing, only when the weakness is surpassed by God, who is strength.

And just do it.

Heh! Im blogging using old fashioned technology like gprs and a hp ;P

The Blessing of Weakness

personal lesson for me recently...

though 'weakness' and 'inherent character flaw' is quite distinct.

(approx) countdowns =D

it's 2months plus to enlistment

just a lil bit less than a month to EARC
my God provides. trusting Him.................

about 1.5 months to FES National Conference.
sign up if u wanna :P (heh... im not paid... juz happened that im in cf for too long le :DD)

and many more.
gotta cut this short cuz i gtg :P

and thursdays are beginning to be my fav day! :D nic wonders why... hmmm....
oh wells.. coincidences lar nic :D

so yea... ciao.
miao.

and singaporeans are hiao

and abit siao.

(approx) countdowns =D

it's 2months plus to enlistment

just a lil bit less than a month to EARC
my God provides. trusting Him.................

about 1.5 months to FES National Conference.
sign up if u wanna :P (heh... im not paid... juz happened that im in cf for too long le :DD)

and many more.
gotta cut this short cuz i gtg :P

and thursdays are beginning to be my fav day! :D nic wonders why... hmmm....
oh wells.. coincidences lar nic :D

so yea... ciao.
miao.

and singaporeans are hiao

and abit siao.

Use it for Your glory.

alone in that journey
where no one seems to know
what it means to not want
what it means to not chase
to pursue determination with determination

can determination really manifest?
is it ever too late to guess?

do i want so badly that i chase so passionately?
what if it's not a thing that i really want?
what is the want that i want

can any in this land truly not want?
am i a 'brother to the destroyer',
do i want want?

how passionately chasers chase
and such dogged determination
in a world where it's all a daze.
will such immense chase
in an insane rat race
result with us all with no laze?

has our sight been hazed?
with no hope hoping to daze.
who's face shall we save? ours.
and ours alone.

what's the flaw that needs to change?
or maybe the change needs no gaze.

can anyone in this land truly understand what it is not to be determined?
can anyone know what it means to want?

hope. we all do.
want. do we all?

academics define.
or so we think.
weaned in a diet of ink
chose the way of the mink.

what ever a mink is =D it juz happened to rhyme :P

with coasts every area,
do we boast in our own little global corner?
small, proud arrogant.
don't wait for the day we become a goner.

but determination is good.
can it be learnt after such a long time?
has mind gotten weak and lost all will?

in my weaknesses, Christ is shown strong.
thankful that i just cant be strong in most areas of life, try as i might...

cuz the more we know our strenghts, i'll prolly be more proud than i already am. and i fear...

'Jesus be strong in my weakness.Empower me.'
"i offer my life to You, everything i've been thru."

you know the next line.

愛

the famous passage on Love... in chinese it's.. beautiful! there's a song i think... but yea..

爱 是 恒 久 忍 耐 ， 又 有 恩 慈 ；

爱 是 不 嫉 妒 ；

爱 是 不 自 夸 ， 不 张 狂 ，

不 做 害 羞 的 事 ，

不 求 自 己 的 益 处 ，

不 轻 易 发 怒 ，

不 计 算 人 的 恶 ，

不 喜 欢 不 义 ，

只 喜 欢 真 理 ；

凡 事 包 容 ， 凡 事 相 信 ， 凡 事 盼 望 ， 凡 事 忍 耐 。

爱 是 永 不 止 息 。

on wed, when we were cycling, our dear ian was telling me why Love has characteristics... u can see it as if like a Person.. Any Person has a characteristics which makes him/her distinct... so it is with Love.

and God is love. 1john4:7-19. came across this when i was looking for something to write for my sister's 1st wedding anniv! congrats jie and jason kor ;)

1john4:19 we love cuz He first love us ;) 我 们 爱 ， 因 为 神 先 爱 我 们 。

it's the time of your life..

when so many people are leaving overseas in a period of what.. 2 weeks???

i guess in the past people who left for overseas to expand their horizon of knowledge were in ones or twos and dribs and drabs. now the concentration increases manifold.

somehow those leaving are leaving to one of two places. both overseas.
Down Under and The Egoistic Kommanders Over Northern Garden-city (aka Tekong lah) =P

so its been 3 farewells in a row for 3 dear friends going to Aussie land...

Goodbye....

Eliza..
it's been a great time having u as a dear friend. if u and jon weren't friends, chances are i wont get to know u that well either... thru this whole time.. it has been an interesting time of friendship for all of us hor? so much has happened in such a short time even though we hardly get to meet u. (nic wonders why... :D:D jk)
see ya in dec!

Angeline... (& Royston & Janelle & Janine)
you've been more than just a staffworker to us. and like u said we've been in cf for almost the same time.. tho of cuz u as a staffworker and me as a student... we've witness God's tremendous move in CF esp sPCF in the past 3-4yrs!
thanks for just being the support for all of us CFers and just being there listen to our complaints and problems.. trust me.. this alone is alot alot and very significant for most of us, me included... take care, together with Royston and your two cute little girls...

Meliza....
nostalgic oreo buddy.. haha! God has really grown u so much in the past few yrs in poly yea? so interesting that we knew each other at the beginning of our CF life and then at the end.
In between... so much happened in our own lives that changed us respectively and even how we handle problems in our lives... Coluld really see the change in u. Let God keep changing u, and dont attempt to be who u are not yea?



each to our own new chapters in life. it's that time of your life.. Guess comparitively, this period of timei relatively later for me than most others.. but oh wells.. it's a sooner or later thing i guess.

and to you guys going Tekong....


How Siang...
it's been so so long since we actually met. and frankly, in my 3+ yrs in poly.. u are the one classmate i can rly clique with as a dear fren... Pity we split to different classes in yr2.
Ok.. u're not exactly going Tekong.. so u better take lots of care and lots of 'ren nai' to Pasir Ris Camp as u get ur Red Beret! hahhaa.. im sure u can one la...
in ur life ahead hor.. dont ever lose hope.. pray u'll find hope in all areas of ur life yea? ;)

Ian...
brudder... u arh... went thru this whole 3 yrs in spcf... God has changed u so so so tremendously. Though u're only gg Tekong for 5days, still tekong :P HAHA...
juz wanna say one thing...
thanks for the friendship, and ur newfound willingness to be friends. I'm sure this is one stage of life u will look back and look Up. ;)


Raymund...
tho we knew each other for a shorter time... it's was great with u and ur crappiness and all the camwhore times :P HAHA.. anyways.. u take care too Ray! and be a Ray of Light in ur camp yar???


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God will walk with us all. ;)