i am a christian

i am a christian.

i am a christian not because it is cool.
but because i saw the need to be forgiven.

I am a christian not because i can,
but because i can't.

i am a christian not because it is an easier way to go to heaven,
but because i was chosen.

i am a christian not because i deserve to go
but because, without Christ i am the worst and hardest sinner.

i am a christian not because i am holy moley
but because i am depraved by nature.

i am a christian not because i have a good moral compass
but because i don't even have one to begin with.

i am a christian not because i was brought up a christian

but because there's something real when i communicate to God.

i am a christian. saying all these nice words.
but at the end, will i survive?

i am a christian, spouting doctrine,

but at the end, does what i say matter?

i am a christian, doing bible study.
but at the end, where did the knowledge all go?

i am a christian, thinking i am always right.
but at the end, i'll be with a hoarde of others who do not qualify to enter the kingdom of heaven.

i am a christian, repenting each time i do something so depraved.

but at the end, it earns no respect from the non-religious who have done much more righteous acts.

i am a christian, thinking i have the answer.

but at the end, i realise that so does everyone else.

i am a christian, attending christian stuff all my life.

but at the end, i end up with a narrow view and vanished friend pool.

i am a christian, thinking everyone else is proud and needs to be 'taught' and 'mentored'.

but at the end, it is i who needs to be taught and humbled.

i am a christian, thinking that putting Jesus in my vocab would impress,

but at the end, there is no Jesus in my actions.

i am a christian, relishing the thought that i am working in a christian org with a nice noble discipline of study.
but it is always the non-religious who show me what it really meant to be compassionate.

i am a christian, proclaiming Jesus, but people can't see Jesus in my heart.

Lord help us to make a difference in our