yep.

learnt lots.
thought lots.
wondered lots.
saw lots.
went through lots.
parking lots??? ;P

the week has lots. not Abraham's nephew though.

i have been contrasting lots of things this week.

true sincerity vs true insincerity
sincere concern vs immature scorn.
faith in the Almighty vs logical is-it-possible-ness.

and you see people's character revealed through different actions, reactions.
some, you're touched. others, turned off.

i wonder how some can manage to be so, erm, *ahem* 'mature', giggling at others and yet at the same time, when being exhorted by someone to stop doing something harmful to themselves, they take it offensively and say that they're quarrelling.

i wonder if i should even blog this.
but my point is that, our lives (me included)... are so filled with inconsistencies, such descrepancies, such contradictions.

oh wells.
this is life.

and i wonder... is it possible to know someone for a lonng time, and yet at the same time not know that person at all.

rhetoric qn.

ans is obvious.

oh wells.
this is life.

as we move on in our stations of life, our various relationships will evolve and change. some get stronger, others... sad to say... just dissipate or dissolve. at the same time, you get new friendships/relationships which may replace those that dissolved. oh wells...

relationships also change as people change. even more so, when both parties are changing at the same time.

oh wells.
this is life.

move on.


i don't know about tomorrow. ... but i know Who holds my hand.
Jesus, You are my best friend, You will always be.






and why are you reading this nonsense???
don't read... must i keep warning you????
;P

of leaning on ppl, mountains, and Master.

my friend's msn nick:

人靠人。 人跑。人靠山。山倒。 人靠主。最好。

men depend on men. men run. men depend on mountain. mountain zao.
men depend on Master. great.


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and indeed i gotta depend on my Master.
with an utterly ridiculously high no. of reports at one go.
with an immense role in a camp.
with deadlines, and ministry commitments needing a balance.
indeed i gotta depend on my Master.



oh wells...
this week has been another of those 'oh wells' weeks.

im sure i can learn things from my sch's poly 50. something happened.
and im sure i learnt lots.

and it was touching to see the love of fellow Bros and Sisters (Siss???) in Christ.
the concern shown was really immense. and i thank Him he put me here.
in CF.

that's what He calls us to be, isn't it???
a community of love.

and that's what we're not doing. in churches. in our own lives.

but, again, we know our own nature.
we know that we cannot do it on our own.

"we can't do it on your own, except by HIm" becomes especially poignant when YOu see what He does.


leaning on other people? leaning on the great mountains and pedestals of our lives?

leaning on Master?


人靠人。 人跑。
人靠山。山倒。
人靠主。最好。

amazing???

it's amazing how when strangers pray for you, their prayers speak to you profoundly. especially when they concern matters that are close to my heart. and it wasn't only one person. somehow i had three people praying for me this morning, when it was just supposed to be one(married) pray for one(single). all three prayed different things, but they were profoundly simple (simply profound???)...
maybe it's His Spirit. no. it IS His Spirit.

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it's also amazing how great our sinful nature is.


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but far more amazing, is how God is God.
how he would even give us Him.

and we all live in an utterly unfair relationship.
not to us.
but we're the ones making it 'unfair'.
think about this:
you'll only get hurt by someone, if you love that person.
more love. more potential hurt.

and the love God has on us is infinite. or maybe infinite is an understatement.
and we hurt Him day in day out.
we betray Him.
we break promises with Him.
we rebel against Him.
we think we are greater.

more love. more hurt.


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it's amazing how quickly we forget too.

you know where i'm driving at ya.

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it's amazing i was born on 1877... :D:D

i got my own town!

how can?

how can a request for me to take up a certain role in a certain ministry actually affirm and confirm the ministry i (think) am called to?

how can angry and frustrating thoughts actually just disappear?

how can a person who seems bent on discrediting the idea of God, christianity and its central figure, Jesus, be a true earnest seeker on what really matters in life?

how can?

how?

no... Who...

God.

after staying at the high-class stable :P

or the palace of the golden horses.....

oh wells...
mixed feelings...

many areas of my own personal growth, i suppose...
and you see a new persepective of others with your interactions.
made better friends with some, and was disappointed with others.

oh wells... i guess familiarity DOES breed contempt....
the other party's/parties' fault are magnified cuz of the duration you know each other.

as i reflected on the bus back to S'pore ALONE (yea i was alone with no one i knew... which was good cuz it gave me a time to reflect...), i realised alot of things which i probably need to deal with.
sometimes from my own mistakes, and that of others.

and sometimes the erm,mistakes or 'just a slip of tongue' we make behind the backs of so-called friends are not exactly the most constructive...
i would rather you come up to me and tell me whatever you're pissed at or have some comments... i will greatly appreciate it rather than you kp-ing behind me and some other guy you kp-ed to, telling me what you kp-ed about. :)
and we go along life kp-ing abt this complaining about that,
saying 'loving and selfless' things like "it should be like that.", "he shouldn't do this in this manner", "my way is correct, his way is wrong", "the world would be a better place if so and so thought things this way"....

and we go on in life complaning about others complaining, and kp-ing about how
so-and-so kp too much, and complaing about how so-and-so kp too much, and kp-ing about others complain.

oh wells, having said these, who am i to say this?
for i am not exactly very constructive sometimes...

and as i reflected on the bus (both literally and non-literally, cuz the bus windows were pretty smooth.... :P) that the more we kp about someone, the more we do not see the faults and cracks of our own character. and ironically, we'll end up exactly as the other party whom we're urinating on.ERM. i meant the other party whom we're pissed off at.

oh wells. lets grow in whatever areas of our lives together.
it's a refinement.

not easy we all know.


and stagnant growth=no growth=dying.


guess i've been blessed (or cursed?) with many people around me who are dogmatic and idealistic and sometimes legalistic in nature.
it's a process that has sometimes encouraged me with their idealism to change this and impact that....
but it's also a process that has cheesed me off once too many times with their "my way is always correct" stance, and wanting others to join them in their passions and whatever they're currently at or on, (or their calling)...

maybe this is me too? for there is a saying "you are your worst enemy". and it can mean that the quirks and flaws we hate about the ppl around us, are the actual things in our own character that annoys others...

maybe this is a chance for me to grow in dealing with people of this erm, 'calibre'...

or it could also be that i should be as decisive as these ppl around me. i know i cheesed off many with my indecisiveness sometimes and i do know full well it's not helpful sometimes. i also know that it's something i need improvement on.
*looks up at text above on what i would rather appreciate you would have done...*

both ways.
it's not a single way street. and we need two hands to clap... (though we can also snap our fingers...... ;P )


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but i'm having mixed feelings too about what the next few months. in web. where am i? i felt so torn. so neither-here-nor-there.

i knew going for the adult sessions in the camp would benefit me (which it did... solid!) but during the camp i got to see the perspective that we can be encouragers in the ministry.

yup... but am i called here to serve?
i don't know. not yet at least.
and it will be pointless and defeating the purpose if we serve with no calling. this is a fact, im sure is pretty obvious...

but we see people coming and 'serve' every week. and they come to service juz to 'serve'... or rather they're on duty that week. but i digress.

GOD, be sovereign.

on the 060606

cool date today....

no.

not ang zor (red dates). nor that fruit that camels eat....

and no.... not the pat tor type... i'm still single =P .


anyway... today's 060606. and the superstitious and the enterprising get all worked up today. be it a movie on Old Men ( or is it Omen????), good astrological day to get married, or bad luck day and u intend to stay at home cuz u scared today's gonna be the end of the world, or whatever...

but what's all the hype about 666?
it came from Revelations 13:18.
But before we go into a debate or whatever, maybe we should have IBS (lvl 4)... haha....


but why should we fear the end of the world?
why should we fear death?

we will fear, only if we do not have any hope. and if we have any notion of judgement, all the more, we will fear.

do u fear?
or do u have the hope?

since u know u have the hope, what should u do?

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actually this post was to jump on the "bandwagon" about post-GDOP.
(i make it seem so trivia)

well...


The Global Day of Prayer 2006.

to be frankly honest, GDOP was like any prayer meeting
the difference?

that many churches and christians came AS ONE.
that you see a preview of the day where Singapore makes a U-turn and WILL confess that HE is LORD.
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.
.


a man was shouting about how christians are full of hypocrites and politics. and i dunnowadelsehewasshoutingabout but i heard lotsa "riots!.......riots!!@$&"

need i say more?
much has been said already. (see archives)



anyway, it was really a privilege to be a flag-bearer/flaggy/flagger/flag-waver? .
manage to hold the same flag throughout. was wondering if i would get any country that i was burdened before to pray for, like Cambodia?(i wasn't and still isn't sure though. but that another time.)

and it was communist North Korea...




will this trigger a burden to pray for North Korea?



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lotsa things to do. not much time.

on a dark, and stormy sunday....

it was pouring super heavily a late sunday morning...

4 guys went to lunch, or rather, brunch, and wanted to go back to church.
but was pretty difficult to go back due to the rain.

a couple saw them and GAVE these 4 fellas their umbrella.






later that day...
their car skidded and crashed.
it was a fatal one.

they lost their son, and mother.

while the woman is in critical condition, with a ruptured liver.


pray.

ya man.... quite true...

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading... You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose. Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily. But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

impulse is not good..

done things on impulse?

or rather, thought thru the whole thing, weighing the pros and cons, and coming to the conclusion that u might just regret it if u do carry it out, but heck.... Impossible Is Nothing.... (huh?)
oops.... wrong tagline... pai seh...
i mean, Just Do It....

now regretting something i knew i wd regret, which i carried on anyway, and now regretting something i knew i wd regret, which i carried on anyway, and now.....

thought thru it impulsively, or impulsively thought thru it?

doesnt make sense...

darn.

i just hope for the best... that something screw up, and it didnt get thru....

hahaaha!


but what was the impetus that i carried it out anyway?

another of those few-posts-in-one....

something's really wrong when you're perpetually tired.

never refreshed.... what's wrong???

i dunno.... too tired to find out... :D:D

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was talking to a friend (u know who u r, if u ever read this... hahaha!) ,
abt the ever engaging topic BGR....
(not a short form of Burger, unfortunately..)
haha...

contentment is needed in this discontent world.......


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there are things in life which are necessary, but not a neccessity.

get your proirities right...

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And in life, just do your best, but don't try too hard.
sometimes if u try to hard to do things, like pleasing people, it will backfire...
live to please God.
After all, why were we created even? (hint: glory)

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and it's pretty annoying that people blog a few lines and then go on to another topic without elaborating.. and typing long underscores to make separating lines, claiming it's a few posts in one... sigh.. these people.

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and remember to brush your teeth twice a day. eat your veggies and fruits. dont eat too much oily food, and eat everything in moderation.
Also, be loyal to country. Don't speed. I'm Loving It. It's Finger Likin' Good
Join the Air Force, as it is like Nothing On Earth.

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