hahaha.. posting just for the sake of it.
oh well. this question strikes me again.
"where does my security lie?"
where does yours?
it strikes me again and again.
and the answers are similar... though slightly different each time...
cuz we change slightly every year.
friends? acceptance?
can people forget a friendship they once had? oh well... yea.
i guess at times in life, there are times when the friends we once had, the next moment can forget you existed in the first place.
i guess the question is to ask ourselves why...
usually it isn't them... but us. you. me. and it really reveals our security behind all these...
Ps Ed's preaching yesterday about changing our disappointment to destiny comes to mind. how timely really.
oh well... like they all say... everything in excess may not be a good thing..
being reflective is good... but sometimes we get too introspective.. too ME-looking. (not windows ME edition.. haha :P )we look towards ourselves, our own circumstance, our own 'objectivity' which actually becomes a little skewed on long periods of time.
i guess im thankful for individuals around me in church and CF who are people i can share pretty honestly.. which means they are very few of them. cuz it takes quite abit for me to share deeply.
Thank you all. you know who you are really. ;)
though, there's always that barrier at the far back end of our minds whether to share everything, and be truely true. i guess all of us have a confidante in God yea? He sees the true true true you, and like what sunday school kids are taught, He knows you better than yourself. See??? cliches return their impact in our lives when it becomes truth.. experientially in our hearts...
oh well.
my last msn chat of the year 2006 last night...
it was really about this...
it's with friends like these who do put things on a wider perspective, and point the obvious thing we should do..
"and thats why friends are rather secondary. friendships in church could be essential but i think we shd be more focus on God Himself. He'll provide the friends we need."
thank you. you know who u are... i guess when our focus is right on Him, everything else really fades to the background, and He will really be the only one that's pushing us to live on this life. this harsh world where futility, frustration and disappointement are the norm. press on yea? hope that the friends He sends you will be friends that will be with you despite our own insecurities, with past friendships...
oh well.. of course, living out our life in such a way is still gonna be a journey.
oh wells. shout-outs for 2006...
there are too many of you... or rather, i got alot of things to thank each of you. so it will take up too much here.
so, oh well.. i'd rather thank you personally... ;P
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